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Today was the last time spent with NYchoir, & my beloved choristers. Like Kai Xuan said, "This will truly change the course of my 'destiny' ". We sang 3 final songs for the year 2003- Somewhere Out There, Thank You For The Music, & Let It Shine. I think that our singing of Somewhere Out There was the best time we have ever sang the song, probably because we really sang it with feeling & emotions, like Val & Cherie told us to. Lilin reminded me (& everyone else) that that was to be the final time we would be singing together, & we couldn't let that chance slip away.

Seniors, juniors & peers hugged me, patted me on the back, gave me little (but really nice) things, shook my hand, and said their goodbyes. It was one of the saddest times of my life. (My 2nd saddest was saying goodbye to primary school pals.) Then kx, lilin, cherlyn, Joanna, Kerr & me sat around the grand piano & sang Somewhere Out There one last time. My voice really wobbled around, & I crossed my arms to maybe stop the tears. Nothing helped. When I hugged kx, the tears just flowed down. They are a part of me, my singing buddies, & I know I'll never forget them. Shao Ning warned me not to "dao" them when I see them around, & this is not the first time I've heard that. I'll never ever "dao" anyone! & if I just pass by without saying "hello", it 's because I truly didn't see anyone, so don't misunderstand!

One of the choristers, who happens to be a senior who loves to tease me as much as I like to tease her, sms-ed me. I want to type it out, word-for-word cos it's quite sweet. (There! I've admitted already!)

Senior (whose identity I'll remain secret) :
" hey.. all the best for your new year in the new school.. God bless you in all you do & don be too sad & don miss me too much. Haha. Ok, see u around some another day ya. U go girl.. okok admit I WILL miss u alittleweenybit haha.. you may not noe it but u have been quite an encouragement to me. Haha. Cos I love teasing u. Smile more k. & don keep on bullyin nice people like me. Bet u are so touched now u wanna give me x'mas present. Haha. Ok.. love ya.."

Thanks dear senior. & that message was 8 screens long. =0

Went to Westmall with kx. Before that we just sat at the back of the bus & listened to the cd I got for her. It was so, so sad! We were both crying at the back of the bus, listening to Tarzan's You'll Be In My Heart. I'll never forget that horribly sad & bittersweet moment.

I cannot believe it is really all over, that I will never be able to go back to my 2nd home (M3-01) again, except visits. What's worst is that I'll never be a part of this fantastic, international gold choir, a choir which can overcome all the odds & difficulties that we faced together, a choir with great leadership & super lame jokes, a choir with people so different, yet so similar. Singing brought this choir together, & it's only through singing that we'll have that bond. I'll miss you, Nychoir, & I know that beyond any doubt, Nychoir will shine bright & strong, always.

But I'll have the memories, & I won't let them go.

You'll Be In My Heart
"When destiny calls you,
you must be strong.
I may not be with you,
But you've got to hold on.

You'll be in my heart, believe me, from this day on, now & forever more. You'll be here in my heart, no matter what they say.
I'll be there always. . "

Goodbye choir, & thank you for the memories.




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