21 July 2004
8:30 PM
Racial Harmony Day Celebrations
Today we had RH/Youth Day celebration. I wore dee's burmese skirt which was really long, and really colourful and pretty! And lots of people wore really pretty things, like xiao yu & ann wearing the pink saris (twins!) and melissa's turquoise one! Really pretty.. And almost the whole of nutella wore some ethnic costume. We rock. 310's Peruvian potato patties sold out pretty fast, cos Clara, dee, chay, eme and myself went round begging people to buy some. By the time debbie came over to get some (she promised me!) it was sold out & she got the nachos instead. I liked the bandung drink with the evaporated milk the best. (:
So anyway, after the celebration, had Speech Day rehearsals in the hall, which is really dumb cos everyone seemed to have gone out while poor ol' sec3 choristers were standing near the grand piano in the hall practising. But it was an extremely fun time singing again. Can't wait for tomorrow's choir practice!
Went to wisma with lun later on. I really wanted to get the roxy pullover (black) but my dear cousin had it already (i don't doubt her taste), and the rest were pretty boring, so we moved over to topshop, and couldn't find anything either. Pathetic shopping spree. Were waiting for my mum who was still at taka eating her ice cream so we walked round wisma about 3 times eating sushi (:
New America Singers Exchange Programme
It's a little late to blog about this, but since it is a milestone in my life (laughs), I just felt like it. Basically, they came, they sing, they won our hearts. Their disney item was superb of the superbs, & solos were American-idol material. And of course, (who will ever forget), some really fantastic people in the choir. They were super friendly and stuff, & they taught us line dancing too! (: Our performance was below standard, maybe because we were either really nervous at having to sing in front of people around age 18 and above, or that they were really intimidating cos most were really t a l l. So anyway, we made lots of new friends, & had a fantastic time with them. Their next stop is Thailand, then off to Korea. I don't suppose they'll be visiting here any time soon, but ming said "
you'll never know..."(mysteriously), so...
Me, Xinzi, Sarah T & Sooneh hung around for about 45 min after the exchange to talk and gush and sigh and cry. And bang on the piano, singing some rediculous made up song about lost love. It was terribly pathetic, and ever so bitter-sweet. They rock. And we talked and talked and talked, and when we got too tired talking we would sing and sing and sing. :X And at that moment I felt like the world had collapsed, leaving me & my other croonies alone and lost forever. (to those who know what I'm talking about: here's a big
sigh.)
So anyway, I was on my way home after the exchange, (7.30pm) & I was naturally thinking about a certain someone. And I was thinking when I'll ever feel like I did again, & whether I was just living in my own little dream, like castles in the air, no foundations,
nothing. Then I saw a van pull by, & on the van, in
really big blue letters, was "
Blue Moon". I almost burst out laughing. It was as if it were talking to me, like, "once in a blue moon will you meet that someone..", and now that I have, maybe blue moons are really just
once-in-a-lifetime. It's funny how little things like that can haunt and mock you.
I couldn't go with sooneh & sarah t for the sat concert, or friday night's activity with the NAS cos I went for rgs dance and guitar concert (which was really cool btw), and I really missed out big time. They both got to take photos with J.S.! And talk, and laugh, and do all the cool stuff with them! And I had to miss out on it all. So I was feeling really crapped out, & to add salt to the wound, both of them kept showing me the pictures of jeremy, like on display pictures on msn (sarah) or during RS Consultation Meetings (sooneh), or whenever they see me, they'll give this big grin, like "oh haha you couldn't come. Seen the pictures yet??" And I decided to go on the whole
I hate Sarahs spree. But I still loved them of course, the spree was just something I felt, becuase I really wanted to kick myself when I saw those awesome pictures of Thomas and Self. ;)
It turned out that sarahs had this little plan thing, & when they presented their "present" to me today, I was so, so, so, shocked &
awed &
touched (that is an
understatement) I just wanted to
die on the spot. I don't want to type it here cos it was
really special, and I don't want to "cheapify" the gift by
blogging about it (how unromantic), so I'll just tell you guys here & now, that what you gave me means
the world to me, & it's
not becuase he signed it. It's cos
you cared. And caring and remembering a friend even when I don't warrant rememberance is something a true friend does, & I felt that today. So I really want to thank you here and now, for what you gave me: The gift (it was beautiful), and the most fanstatic and incredible shock-of-my-life anyone could have ever given me, and letting me realise that friends are truly from God. You guys rock. (:
[IcriedtodaycosIrealisedwhatitmeanttoholdonsomethingsodear, andrealisedthatwhatreallymattersisthethoughtthatcamewithit] Thank you.
"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. "
-C.S.Lewis
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12 July 2004
7:09 PM
I
just realised today that gloria
stole my best friend, back in kindergarden! She
demanded to know if I was from Jurong Calvary- after
school today outside popular, then she
claimed that meiting was always
her best friend,
just because they were bus-buddies! lOl where's the logic.. And I was like, "
no no no! I've
never seen you before back then.." and she was like, "yes! yes! Meiting
was my best friend!" So you see, glor did
steal my best friend back then, cos meiting was in
my class, and I mean, logically speaking, she was more of
my best friend than yours.
Haha .
So there. (: But we
shared meiting anyway.. It's so coincidental! Who would have thought..
I talked to chay for over an hour just now.. I really don't know where we find so many subjects to talk about, but this was like with Tracy, Daphne & Kai Xuan! (:
I have decided that being peeved at
people will
never work, & that I shouldn't take myself too seriously. I have decided that
forgiveness might be the way after all, and because of that, I have
retracted my statement in the entry before (the one about those people). I don't mean that I didn't mean what I said, it's more of like, if I leave it as it is, it'll
never go away. And I'd
rather be happy than dignified, thank you.
Come to think of it, forgiveness is better than revenge. And I don't speak from the "saint"'s point of view, but in everyday life occasions, this applies as well.
Let's say- your darling pet
dog bites you. Because
people are always going "eye for an eye... tit for tat.." etc. Therefore it would be logical to--
bite the dog back. But unfortunately, that is not what we'll want to be doing. Instead, (based on observation alone), what someone did was to go "
ouch!", give the doggie a little friendly whack, then give it a
bone (reward). So, if we're
forever going "EYE FOR AN EYE", we'll just end up having
no eyes, or someone else's (because it seems that the phrase implies the
exchange of eyes). Forgiving is one thing, accepting is another, & forgetting is the 3rd. Most
people will never forget, but I don't think it'll hurt much to forgive, though it's something I seem to have difficulty doing.
Which brings me to the point of dishing
shit back to the world.. During Lit. today, me & carmen were discussing
the man in the bowler hat (some really cool poem), and then we were just chatting and slacking when carmen said something about how the world will be perfect because it will end one day, or something terribly sad that went along that line. Then we were talking about the world (generalisation)
hurting us, and giving us Quote
shit Unquote. Then I was saying how giving back the
shit would only stink up everyone, because we'll be getting our hands dirty (figuretively), when it was initially only our face which was
shitty.
What is the purpose of getting both
people stinky, when all we have to do is
take a bath? (solve the problem ourselves)
(This whole paragraph doesn't seem to make sense...)
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08 July 2004
8:11 PM
I totally
crapped up my abrsm
violin exam today. Argh I felt like murdering myself when I stumbled on the
legato part of Handel's Fireworks!! I think my mind wandered when I looked at the examiner, who looked like someone owed her
a life or something, and I got so worked up with the expression on her face that the piece completely left my mind & I found myself playing the extremely messed up version of the piece. Ms Yew (my accompanist) was looking at me with "
that look", which I interpreted as "
what the hell are you playing??! What's your problem??" . So, my exam didn't go too well, so there goes the distinction.
whee.
Before I left, some of my classmates really gave me a great load of
encouragement and support! I was
really pretty touched when ann sabby clara xiaoyu jingxuan dee & chay gave me
hugs! It was really nice of you guys! And of course a handshake from ming, and smses from all of them.. Aiwen too! (:
Thanks so much you guys, I really needed the moral support. >.< And while I was warming up at
home, dee and chay and eme called me from the sch pay
phone to give me like, last minute encouragements. I was so super surprised and happy!
They rock.. Love you gals 100%! And sorry pj, for leaving you all alone to face all those titrations during chem. block! I heard you guys forgot to add universal indicator. Must have been a
'torturous' time hey? :D Missed you
people, and I wished I were in
school..
Yah, so today went swell except for my messed-up violin. Looks like changing to a new set of strings didn't work out. (I changed my strings from those
cheap China ones to the
handmade German ones which cost about $11 for a string, not the most expensive, but I'm getting there :D )
-The entry ends here. Like I said it would.-
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05 July 2004
5:49 PM
Sunday was a
fantastic day! Whoo whee~ Went out shopping with my family for the whole afternoon @Orchard Wheelock Place, & ate at my fav. place BigO (opp. nydc). It's
yummy. Then I went next door to buy my backpack from
Crumpler, but it turned out that the one I wanted was more for laptops than for books! I was so
disappointed. And my dad was so nice, he was willing to get it for me through it costed about $165 I think. But it would have been totally
worth it, becuase it was such a
funky bag. Groan.. So anyway, we went over to borders for a while, cos I wanted to get the new Dan Brown book
The Da Vinci Code, which I spent the
whole of today reading it, and it's such a great,
mind-boggling, exciting book I'll
have to read it again. But it was really, really interesting.
Everyone must go buy it! Some portions of it I don't believe, especially on those regarding Jesus Christ having another birthline and all that, but to each his/her own, so. And I found the book I've been looking for since practically
forever. Such a good day.
I managed to convince my dad to go
Zara and
ESPRIT with me (he hates shopping), & I would have bought the pretty skirts and shirts if the queue for the changing room hadn't been so long! >.< And then at Esprit, all the shirts I wanted (plus the shoes) were all sold out. Ack. But never mind, I came too late anyway. All the 50%-70% off stuff were like, size
L?! But it was fun I guess.
Then after dinner at 5th ave. I tried the
Hazelnut/choc and cookies&creme
Gelato after shopping @ coldstorage. My sis ate most of everything though, cos I was still reading Da Vinci's Code!
Anyway, today's
violin lesson sucked big time. I think it was the worst I've played in my life, & the crazy thing is that my exam is this thursday.
Oh woe is me! And I'm having some difficulty with the SS proposal. I mean, I've been trying to find out what
non-liberal communitarian means! And the pathetic thing is I might not even
need to know what it means! Argh. But Aster's a great SS partner! (: Very fun doing it with her. Went to JE Library to see if I could find any more Dan Brown books. It was all g o n e. The whole 'BRO' section was empty. What's wrong with the world.
So overall, Youth Day totally
sucked all the way, but Youth Day EVE rocked! (:
"If what you're working for really matters, you'll give it all you've got."
-Nido Qubein
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02 July 2004
9:12 PM
Sec4 Farewell Party
every path u take
every step u make
every road to your destiny
leads in every way
calls to u this day
to be the best that u can be
for you shall mount with wings as eagles
and u shall
fly to heights unseen
u'll tie your fate to the soaring mountains
and
see your future, in the stars that beam
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