26 May 2004
9:04 PM
Immortality
Take it. It's yours!
It was an utterly
gory movie (for me it was), with the
worst possible ending
any movie can ever have.
Troy had all the heros dying, and the women crying, and the whole Troy in flames in the end. And Brad Pitt died for love, after killing for glory and fame. I don't even
remotely see any connection whatsoever. Archilles was this brutal killing machine, and in the end, he died without even lifting his sword.
Sigh.
Troy made me think a lot on my way home. Especially on stuff that the king said, like whether one should treat their enemies with honour and
respect although they fight for opposite causes, & whether killing made anything
right. How many must die before something can resolve, and how much blood should be shed for a name written in our history books? Why must one reduce oneself to mass murder for
'glory'?
Where does it ever end anyway..
I think I missed half of the show, because I spent all the killing portions of the movie holding the popcorn box in front of me, and sinking lower and lower in my seat. But it was
really bloody. Men were lying everywhere in pools of blood! ): Carmen & pet were like, nothing was happening in front of them, & me and chay were cringing with every sword swish. But the sound effects were good, if not too good. :O I think (according to pet) during one of the fighting scenes, when I was holding some popcorn in my hand, I kind of threw the popcorn at pet and ate air or something. The scenes were just too mind-blowing! ;X But I had lots of fun watching it with them, although carmen did scare me a little when she took her book to write stuff down. I thought she was doing homework! :B
It's the june hols now! I'm going to seize every minute to have fun! I can't wait for tomorrow..
Everyone is trying to accomplish something big, not realizing that life is made up of little things.
-Frank A. Clark
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22 May 2004
4:38 PM
THANK YOU
Before anything, I
must thank these people who gave me all the beautifully pretty flowers and hugs, and those who attended Bon Appetito:
Nanyang Choir friends: Thank you
so much for attending my concert! It really meant a lot to me, all the support you guys have given me. So sad that kim & mel couldn't come, but you guys have your reasons, so thanks for the roses! (:
Lilin, the sunflower is so pretty, & it's still living! Was so happy to see you! Know sop2s are improving under your care! heh.
Kerryn, you were the first to give me a hug and the beautiful red rose! Thanks so much! And your haircut looks great! :)
Tammy, you looked great as usual! Missed you a lot, fellow sop two-er!
SiQi: I love that red rose. It was the red-est of all! hehe. Missed you loads dear senior! Bet Ivee was
super happy to see you!
KaiXuan, You had a Chem. test the next day, and yet you still came for my concert! Love you loads, and thank you so so very much for your support! It truely made a difference to me. Thanks for the pink rose dear (:
3tenners: You guys
rock! To aster, sabby, chay ling, jingxuan, clara, xiaoyu, ann, carmen, pet, rnng, vanessa, melissa, renuka, yi xuan, sher, ming, cheryl, steph,
thank you so much for coming! I really
really appreciate that support!
clara, ann, sabby, jing xuan, xiao yu, chayling, thanks for that
great "presentation" of the flowers! Lemme see if I can remember it.
you guys said I was as elegant, pretty, pure, beautiful as a rose right? (it ain't true, but oh well!) Thanks so much! Though I didn't remember it all, I can remember the way you guys presented it to me. So cute! I really appreciate it. Thank you once again. And I know I always smile secretly at sabby, ann & clara during the concert while I was performing! You guys are really great. But I don't know why you want to take pictures with me, my makeup was really horrendously terribly thick and evil! (Better not upload any pictures!!)
Thanks to anyone I didn't mention but still appreaciate. Loved performing for you girls (and myself). :P It's really you guys who make my performing worth the while! Hope you enjoyed it (:
-[ Somewhere Out There, if love can see us through... +
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4:06 PM
Bon Appetito
It's over. The dream has ended, the magic faded, and reality has set in. Back to my old life,
minus the glitz and
glamour of stage music & threater. What I am
amazed at is rgchoir's
incredible ability to perform miracles, especially for this concert. I mean, almost everyone was lamenting on how we'll all spoil the whole concert cos we weren't prepared enough, but judging from the comments and sms-es I recieved, I think that rgchoir
rocked.
Glory to God.
So where should I begin..
Ok, the day started
bad. We were hot, sweaty and irritated
(almost all of us anw) when we reached AC[B], because the weather wasn't working with us
as usual. When we rehearsed
The Magic Flute, it was really bad, and all of us were like,
shit. We felt the failure straight off, & nutella was panicking
excessively. It was pretty terrible. We were hoping for a miracle really, & we got exactly that. And what really amazed me was how the whole choir
prayed together as a choir, for the success of the concert! I was so speechless with happiness! (: Nutella prayed, 2s prayed, and towards the start, the whole choir together. God blessed us in every possible way that night, which is what made it one of the
most special concert's I've
ever performed in.
At 7.30, people started strolling in, & I was peeping through the cracks on stage to find my family and friends. First people I saw were my parents, sis & bro. They were perhaps one of the first there! (: And then I spotted
Cheryl squeezing past the seats on the second floor! :D Then there was vanessa, renuka, carmen and pet! heh.. And that was when I started getting
really nervous. To make it worse, ann, clara, sabby and xiaoyu were seated in the front row, the
exact spot I would be dancing in front of for my sectional item! >.< I was so
so nervous! The worst was I had the
weirdest hairstyle! It totally didn't go with my gown
at all, cos it was all
punky and quite funky, cos the choreographer did it up for me and sarah,
way too early actually. (It was for my witchy role in the later part of the concert) So there we were, standing around with the punky hair, while everyone else was looking
super good and pretty with their nice hair. >,<
So anyway, at around 7.40,
the show was on. Las A. was quite rushed, but me & xinzi really enjoyed singing it! (: The rest went by so quickly, and before I realised it, I was backstage rushing to take off my gown to change into my busking outfit. Nutella totally rocked! (: I mean, we only had the full idea of what we were going to do 7 hours before, which left us
minimum time for practice! And we
pulled it off!! Still can't believe it.
Me, su mae & cat were backstage during the 1s sectional item (macdonald's girl), and both of them were practising the "highlight" of our sectional item (signed, sealed delivered), the erm,
gay part. :P It was hilarious, and we were all
squealing like crazy backstage, while trying to dance along with the 1s. Will never forget that time!! And when it was our time to perform, (I was the working woman person thing -.-) I saw sabby and clara again! Haha. Really wanted to wave but I had to pretend to freeze on stage. We were really all so hyper! Although it started a little shaky, we finished off real well :D All hail sop & alto 2s!
During the intermission, I was
so busy trying to put on the
thickest and most
hideous makeup possible, and ms lim helped do the funky hair thing again, with this gatesby super hard gel. My hair felt like a bunch of sticks! Emily, sarah and me had on really
evil eye makeup, and we tried using really dark colours for our lips! It was so fun! Before our turn to appear, the Black people were encouraging us, & it was really that time when I felt the bond of all our choir members. It was really inspiring. (: And the 3 ladies weren't nervous at all! We were all geared up and ready to go. The Magic Flute was smooth and flowing, except for the occasional hiccups, but all was well. And before we went out, emily told us to go at it 3000%!! So we acted like the bimbo-est ladies-witches around, with all the
ultra-squeaky voices and drama hands. Hehe. We
totally enjoyed ourselves then! During the curtain call, I heard some people shout
"We love you chermaine!" when the 3 ladies appeared! I was so
so surprised! I don't know whether it was the 3 tenners or ny-ers, but thanks so much! I was beaming like crazy after that. :D
Bon Appetito was a blast and a
miracle, and
all the credit should go to Him! But all that's left now is a big gap, and I sorely miss the good ol' rehearsals, and my dear costumes and character, with all her
bimbo-ness and shiny sharp spears, 'killing' little boys dressed as serpents. ):
If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost. That is where they should be. Now put the foundation under them.
-Henry David Thoreau
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17 May 2004
9:16 PM
Countdown to concert:
4 days left!! Gosh, time doesn't really fly, it just
disappears. lol.
[I feel so dead, like I was telling marcus. Sometimes he says the shittest things.] Ok, I think I am
high today, and it's cos of our terrific
inspirational busking session today, and the news that sooni is well! I can't get any happier really. :)
Ok, to backtrack a little. On Saturday, went on a
makeup shopping spree with lun. Quite fun, except we looked at lots of makeup and shaked our heads many many times. I mean,
$30++ for a tube of lipstick? Who are they kidding? At first we wanted to get some cool stuff from
Esprit, but Red Earth has some really
ex stuff, so we ended up getting some less expensive makeup, like from maybelline and loreal. I think the liquid foundation was really nice, but I still prefer my 3D water-shine purple star lipstick from maybelline. It's pretty nice, but nothing special I guess. Makeup gets
boring after a while, especially for poor people like me. >.<
Went shopping for concert costume stuff on sunday. I think on total I spent about
$110 on all my props, costumes and hair excessories! Can't believe it. It's mainly cos the sequins I bought were really expensive, like
$6 a metre??! What's that about. But lazy people have to get such nicely packed sequins from Spotlight, so I can't really conplain. And I bought a nice little handbag that day as well. My mum was tickled that her "little" daughter was buying so many handbags, but that one was
really cute. What's more, my old one is already a year old.
I think there's a 50% discount on Kipling bags in taka, I can't remember where, cos I guess those were the old stock. But
50%?? Kipling was a
novelty many years back when I was about 10 years I think, cos I remember feeling very special when I got an orange Kipling bag on my tenth birthday. But I think it's a nice brand. :)
"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
Eleanor Roosevelt
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12 May 2004
9:55 PM
Oh gosh, anna thinks this new blogger thing is
funky. She went like
"awww.. this ish so darn pweety.." >.< Actually I kind of prefer the old version, but beggers can't be choosers anyway, so whatever.
crap. Concert's
in a week's time. crap.
What are we going to do?? I don't think there's even time to cry about anything, cos there's a lot of unfinished stuff everywhere! What's more no one seems to have the time to accomplish much!
What to do what to do.. I just finished (half) memorising my songs, esp. Las, with all the clapping and stuff, and it's pretty hard. My mum is screaming at me for making so much noise around the house, I think she's scared I might scare the neighbours or something.
During recess, I was around selling the choir tix. It was kinda like a routine. First, look puzzled and confused. Then, reach for the tickets and count slowly. Then reach for the money and look at it like it's a bunch of worms. Lastly, give the tickets with a lot of hesitation, cos I don't know whether that's what I am suppose to do anyway. So basically that's it. I think I'm pretty good at all this ticketing thing actually.
[This is known as sarcasm.]
I don't like it
at all when my friends are decieved and lied to and
cheated. Esp. cheated. When they're so so happy with what they have, but behind their back, they are being lied to,
every single day, in every single action and word. I can't believe it, but I don't want to break anything apart, esp. since some people think ignorance is bliss. But I hate jerks
to the core. I really do. And I especially hate it when guys get girls as trophies, some
object to show off. The worst thing is when the girl doesn't have a clue, and she believes she is loved, when actually the dumb guy can't wait to have a nice change, just for popularity's sake. tracee, you know right? Somehow you knew it all along..
I can't stand the weather these days. It's all heat and humidity. Even rain hardly brings any relief.
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07 May 2004
11:07 PM
T I R E D.
Very tired. Tired.
I am tired. TIRED.
I don't want to complain, because having a concert is really fun, but. Tiring. Very.
What I'm not tired of the songs or the dances, it's just a phyical tiredness. Like my brain
died on me now, and all I hear is Linkin Park's Numb again. I seem to be
forever hearing it. Maybe it's a message to me or something, to be
more like me and be less like you. Whatever that means.
Saturday
[7.30][ Choir rehearsals }
[12nn][ Backdrop painting }
[1.30][ World Trade Games }
[5.30][ Going out }
[9.00][ Dead, & going to sleep }
[11.00][ In the process of sleeping }
I think my life is getting more and more sad. But it'll all be over soon. I don't know whether to be happy or upset.
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03 May 2004
8:01 PM
2.4km run was today. And this is one of those times I feel utterly
disappointed in myself. I let myself down, &
gave up just like that. When I asked around, people were
amazed that someone even stopped, & once I did, it became a chain effect thing. So what if I got an A?? I
counted. I stopped about
4 times? And at the 3rd time, I had already told myself that I expect failure, because after all, I had already
given up. But seriously, if it weren't for people around like
carmen, sarah, sher, su mae, charlene, ann, ming, & my other classmates, I wouldn't have continued. I would have stopped right there and then, because really, once you stop, it's pretty hard to continue. Thankfully for my weekly run, I was able to catch up with the lost time. But what mattered
most was that I
stopped and
gave up, and in that whole process, let myself down. It was then and there that I felt what it was like to meet failure face to face, and
accept it. That hurt, & it still does. Maybe if I say I'll never forgive myself it'll be a lie, but currently? *shakes head* I just feel really
pathetic and lousy.
Too bad. >.<
It is also at this very run when I realised that there are people who were there for me, & I don't just mean cheering at the end, I mean
running along side-by-side with you, cheering you to move it, and reach that end. I mean people who, after they have gone through the run themselves, and are
dead-beat,
still run along to cheer people and
join them in running. I mean people who cared
not for themselves, or how
terribly tired they were, but rather what they could do to
strengthen their friend. I appreciate and
will remember what you guys have done, & I
love you people! (: And thank you, carmen.
I also realised that there are times when you can trust a person to be there for you, & then in the
process of realising what a good friend that person is, she turns around and
"slaps" you right in the face- figurtively speaking. I write this from my
own experience (not today though), & also from my friend's experience today. I felt it so much I had to blog this down. But I just say:
people who just want to be
ahead of you will
always be
behind you, because in life, it's
not all about beating your
friends. It's about gaining
trust and love from them. And if beating them in anyway is going to determine anything, it'll just show how much you value your friends. The truthful will always be a
winner! (:
OK, I think I've really said enough. I'm
dead tired now, & I wish for a
nice cool room and some sleep soon! Rachel was right. I should have remembered that I'm running for
Jesus, & not for myself!
Never mind, next year, I won't stop anymore! Life's too short for that! (:
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02 May 2004
4:47 PM
My new template is
exactly how I feel today. Like, there's a big
huuge gap right in the middle, separating logic from reason. I've been feeling q. crappy, today especially, & so far 6 people
(I actually counted) have told me I've been real quiet lately. It's not that I don't have anything to say, but maybe right now I'm going through quite a rough time, & that's why my brain isn't exactly working.
It wasn't working at Chay Ling's place either. But hey, it was fun playing
mah jong with you guys! And of course, me and chay were competing to sit at the
east side of the table-
where things begin. It was pretty funny, and I felt like one of the
Joy Luck aunties, except I never won, but only cos I was
new to the game! :) And then buying the big vanguard and cardboard at the mall was cool too. Dee got to hold it all the way home, and it kept bumping into people. Looked like she was holding a kite covered with the popular plastic bag! We were giggling everytime it hit someone. >.< how
paiseh.
And me, chay, petrina stayed a while to play the Sims! Too bad dee had to go home, if she was around she would have seem some pretty weird stuff going on! ;) But Chay said to keep it
our little secret, so I guess no one will ever know..
Shh! :) And I am beginning to realise that there's that
something with pet that I only realised then, especially after playing the Sims. But don't worry pet, I won't tell a
soul. XD After a while, the game gets pretty boring actually, but playing it with your groupies around is always entertaining.
These few days have been pretty tiring, and today I get the time to
unwind. Whew. But still, the pressure of the concert and my piano exam is getting at me. I have to start memorizing scores!! *faints* It'll be hard, but I
will do it. *nods resolutely* I've got a quote on operas. I think it totally reflects the attitude to adopt when singing our
'dearest' Mozart's
Magic Flute. It's pretty cool.
So anyway, back to describing what induced me to make that big gap right in the middle of my blog. It could symbolize anytying really. Like maybe the opening of the red sea, or a straight path, or whatever. Basically when I did it there wasn't any metaphorical meaning to it, so let's just pretend it is a
'creative arty 'thing, to soothe the mind and senses. Whatever that means.
"No good opera plot can be sensible, for people do not sing when they are feeling sensible."
-W. H. Auden
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