30 June 2004
6:47 PM
The
blackout was really a "wow" experience, cos I was busy rushing my logarithms homework becuase I was about to doze off right there and then, when my sis started shrieking & I realised I couldn't see a thing. What was cool was the whole Jurong area was darkness, and I stood outside my
home to admire the
blackness. It was such a refreshing change from the bustle and lights, and the neighbours were playing with their torches or something. Anyway, our batt for the torches were weak, so I had to do my log by the candelight, which was
awesome. I
totally looked at log in a
different light,
NOT. (
it was in a different light anyway, but that's not the point). So I bathed using one candle and extreme cold w ater, and I felt like we were having some war, only I was listening to the radio, which was playing Summer Sunshine, which I feel is contradictory to what I was feeling. I was very, very cold.
NY-St. Nix's concert
Laudatur Voce I was
splendid! NyC- you guys really brought the
house down! Loved the Sound of
Music, only it was so short, but I guess the
time was running late! It was terrific, & the costumes were really superb! So proud of you guys, especially the
sec3s! Lilin, your swan dance was so, so graceful, you & Cheryl make a great pair! And Shao Ning was growling right at me when she was playing the lion, cos I was sitting
right in front! Haha.. Kai Xuan! Your 'solo' part was really, really great! Valerie, Cherie & Kai Xuan's voices were ringing throughout the hall, and it was truly
beautiful. And I know lots of the sec3s saw me sitting right in front, & I guess I was making quite a bit of noise anyway, like Priscilla! We shouted "
ENCORE" twice! It seemed that after every song, LiLin would look at me, I would be smiling like crazy at her.
Sop2s rocked! (: And I think we clapped the loudest and longest! (: It was great, only the group of guys beside me were over-bearing. Screaming like
maniacs is not exactly very "macho", but we couldn't be bothered.
I went 1 hour earlier with Daphne, then me and Prissy went to help
Mel with the ushering/ ticketing at the counter outside the entrance of the concert hall. It was so
fun! I saw
so many people, including my American cousin here to visit! I was
shocked beyond words when I saw Ariel! And Ivee, Stephanie and Siying were there too! (: Haha. Mel kept demanding for an
apple, and she gave me some of her gummies from Germany. (I bought
U.S.A apples & pears instead of
flowers. Voices have to be "repaired".) So anyway, I had a super
time watching the concert, & my only lament is I wasn't able to perform with you guys! All I can say is Well Done, & hearing you guys brought back all the memories. Me & Pigsy almost
cried when we heard
Ave Maria. It was truly
awesome.
Today's sch. went
okay, as usual. One of my
friends said something that really got me thinking. She asked whether
we can lose something we never had. Makes sense doesn't it? The point is that the object
never was yours to lose, but then again, I guess it's the
hope that we're talking about here.
If it were
love, and that
love was given to someone else, we'd have
lost something, becuase we lost that hope that the
love may
someday be ours, although we
never had it in the first place. I
too have lost things that we never my own, & I really wonder why firstly, I didn't reach out the grasp that hope, & secondly, why when it slipped out of my reach, I didn't try to reach out for it again.
"Nothing is as real as a dream. The world can change around you, but your dream will not. Responsibilities need not erase it. Duties need not obscure it. Because the dream is within you, no one can take it away."
-Unknown
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27 June 2004
12:50 PM
School started on thurs, and can't say I hated it. We kind of
slacked the two days by, like watching movies for some lessons, or
clarifying stuff, not much of learning done (with the exception of math.)
My hols were great, nothing fantastic, but I enjoyed it. Too bad it was so short. Went
ice-skating with my bro and sis, & I must say my bro is getting really good at skating. One thing's for sure, he isn't afraid of falling over, so maybe that's why he copies the "stunts" the older guys do, & I think he's pretty good at it! (:
Ny-st.nix's
choir concert is tomorrow!
ahhh... so excited! Can't wait to see them sing sing sing and shine tomorrow evening! I'll most probably be gushing throughout the concert. Hope I can meet at my ny friends, and I'll be counting on sitting with
Daphne, if she remembers.. X:
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19 June 2004
1:03 PM
If I knew...
by Kapil Moudgil
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck
you in more tightly and pray the Lord
your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd see you walk out the door
I would hug you and kiss you and call you
back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time to
spare an extra minute or two with you
I'd stop and say, "I love you"
Instead of assuming that you know I do.
For surely there is tomorrow
to make up for an oversight
and we'll always get a second chance
to make everything alright.
But just in case I might be wrong
and today is all I get
I'd like to say how much I love you
and hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone
young or old alike
and today might be your last chance
to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow
why not do it all today?
For if tomorrow never comes
you will surely regret the day
you didn't take the extra time
for a smile, or hug, or kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone
what turned out to be their last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today
and whisper in their ear
Telling them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear.
Take the time to say, "I'm sorry"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you, or, It's okay"
And if tomorrow never comes
you'll have no regrets about today.
Apologize
and start anew
and tell the one who loves you
that you love them too!
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10 June 2004
7:18 PM
Just found out that my sis is doing the
triple jump in
track, & her coach signed her up for
Nationals!! :D So happy for her! Knew she could do it.. So I went to the fantastically
wonderfully new Jurong Library to look for some books to help her in that jump thing. Turns out that it's one of the hardest jumps in the whole category of jumps(according to the book)! Wonder what her coach was thinking, putting her in that kind of thing, not that I don't believe she can't do it, but like, something more
conventional might be better. Just before going off for training today, my mum requested that she came back in
one piece! lOl.
Went out again. I think at this rate my homework will
never get done, but maybe rushing homework towards the end of the hols is part of this june holiday thing. It's incredible how many times I can go out in a day, even my mum was asking me if I ever did anything so far. *
counting..
Afternote: It seems that blogs are pretty dangerous things. That people can get hurt by it, and use it as a weapon to hurt, it's pretty, well,
sneaky. But that's the way this world is, trying to hurt people every time, all the time. >.<
I am really beginning to like
Five for Fighting's
Superman. It's quite on-the-surface, but very sensitive and quite deep..
It's not easy, to be me..
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06 June 2004
12:48 PM
I've borrowed this book "White Rose- una rosa blanca" by Amy Ephron. It's a great book about the Cuban 'war' against the Spanish.
Viva Cuba Libre! Such a nice story.. I spent the whole of this morning reading it.. (:
I've been thinking a lot about the difference between anna's life and mine. And it's amazing how anna treats praises about her being so beautiful, like it was long due or something. I mean, I have to admit, anna
is pretty, but I don't get why her bf has to remind her day after day, as if her
high-profile lifestyle in America wasn't enough to remind her already. Sometimes I really wonder whether anna lives in
Sweet Valley or something, where everyone can change bfs like they change the fashion, and walk around with short little cheerleader skirts, swaying their pom-poms around and laughing with their high-profile cheerleader friends. Is it like that is every American high school? It's really funny, but I am actually wondering whether that is f u n at all. You miss home, don't you? Bet she will never get use to S'pore, where everyone works for whatever reason, then get good grades, then get a nice job, get married, have kids (that's what our govt wants anyway), then die.
How sad. But it seems different in America somehow. Everyone's not so,
serious. But then again, one can get shot at anyday over there.
It's never perfect, is it?
"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing.
-Harriet Braiker"
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04 June 2004
10:19 AM
I love bbqs!!
And the ghost stories didn't scare me at all when walking home! Maybe it was cos I was too busy staring at Lime's
cover shot of
Ryan Seacrest!!
squeals I think he's
hotter than Brad Pitt, just cos he's a lot nicer & sweeter! Not so much of
self-obsession. >.< So anyway,
Thanks Sabby for that
great bbq! Next
time we meet I'm
really going to have to pay you, cos my dad made quite a fuss at me just playing, eating, and then going off.. Hmmph. Let's go ice-skating soon ok?? I have taught a few of my
friends how to skate, & nothing happened to them! Honest! It's pretty safe actually, I would say safer than crossing the road. :x
I still haven't started any homework yet.. Having a vcd marathon! But not the mushy stuff like ah-hem, more like those type of flying-fighting wushu thing. So cool.
I just did this
email personality test thing that caroline sent. I am
freaked out by the results. I think it's pretty close to what I'm feeling at the moment. Turns out that
Come What May is the song that expresses what I feel for the person I
love. And Nicole Kidman's
Fly Away is how I feel about life! Can't believe that. Like,
"one day I'll fly away\ leave all this to yesterday.." Sounds like someone's going to die doesn't it..
What I am
most surprised at is the song I picked to describe what I am. It's five for fighting's
Superman. I really don't get it? I'll just put the lyrics here to remind myself of what I
shouldn't be.
Five For Fighting's
Superman
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me
I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me
Up, up and away, away from me
Well it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me
Hearing Ewan McGregor singing: Never knew I could feel like this\ Like I've never seen the sky before.
faints.*
*I just realised I am addicted to my blog song, Come What May. This is the 30th time I'm listening (& singing) to it, and I just can't turn it off! I've memorized it back-to-front already.. Even now while I typing this, I still hear it. sobs.. it's a beautiful song, & ewan mcgregor sings so well! Their harmonising's so nice! I've only perfected Nicole's part of it.. waiting for my very own ewan to sing with me the other.. (:
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing..
"Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place.. "
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02 June 2004
1:38 PM
HOPE is not the closing of your eyes to
the difficulty
the
risk, or
the
failure.
It is a trust that
if I fail now, I shall not fail forever.
And if I am hurt, I shall be healed.
it is a trust that
life is good
love is powerful
and the future is f u l l of
promise .
Great quote, powerful meaning..
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01 June 2004
7:59 PM
The hols are going
great! It's so fantastic that I haven't even opened up my school bag to take out my books! This is really the
extreme..
Argh I still can't find the beautiful mambo bag I wanted in January! I went to heeran about 5 million times but yet it seems to be out of stock or something. I will have to go to
Australia to find it then. I'm getting desperate really. Since we may be going there for june hols, it
is time I changed my bag. I am pretty bored with all the bags at home anyway. =x
I just realised how much I
miss ny peeps.
Sigh. After Tracy tagged, it hit me
again how much I miss ny-ers & all our fun and laughter.
Especially nychoir. You guys are simply
irreplaceable. But like I told myself, people have to let go, and move on. I don't regret any decision I made, but I was thinking, if my choice was any different, I still will enjoy myself in school
to bits . (: So it's a win-win situation?
I hear
Daddy's Girls on telly now. :]
I think this is a really cool quote.. (:
"If you want to build a ship, don't herd people together to collect wood and don't assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea.
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery"
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