17 November 2004
10:37 PM
it's stupid to love someone you're not supposed to love at all. it's not only stupid, it's crazy. it's just admiration gone wrong. that's all. that's all.
i don't believe in
loving when there isn't
anything to hold onto. i don't believe in loving when you cannot and
will never be loved in that way. i don't believe in "
hoping for the best", when the best is only what you get
now. it's
pointless and
entirely meaningless to try to pretend you're a part of something you are
not and
never will be.
pointless.
i shouldn't be living in the past any more. not now. not ever. because i'll only realise how wrong i was, and how i wasted my emotions and my brain cells hoping and wishing. it is hopeless, meaningless, futile, completely and utterly pointless to hold on.
i will let go in time. i will do that for my sake alone. it's so sad when you have to give things up.
when the happiest times of your life are those that will never come back again. forever. and we all know, that forever is an awfully long time.
Who can live with the
mere "Love will keep us alive"? after all, you and I know that love
cannot keep anyone alive.
Love will not keep us alive, but love gives us a hope to live for. Some
sanity left to hold on. so maybe.. Rather than dying a
broken person without
ever loving, or rather by
denying to
ever have loved.
if we never hurt, we never feel..
