less larger than life

28 July 2005

10:04 PM

WHAT CAN I SAY.

there isn't much I can say anymore. Just that I wish it wasn't this way, but now that it is, I really don't know what to do..

It's like saying farewell 1 week in advance.. That's too quick don't you think? The tears aren't even brewed yet....

20 July 2005

6:04 PM

I could hardly breathe, and was noticeably suffering from the most severe cardiac arrest I've ever had since tom welling (how unfortunate), as well as heart palpitations that made my heart sound like an African drum with the most bizarre rhythm..

Couple that with crazy chomping on a lemony fruit-tip for sustenance, and an absolutely ridiculous tussle with my RL jacket (it kept slipping from my grasp), as well as ineffectively struggling to hide a colossal grin just waiting to break out of my willful half-smile, and you get a disaster waiting to happen. Or a disaster that did happen.

Blame it on my complete loss of propriety at the bus-stop, and another wacky partner-in-crime who was also gushing almost as much as I was, and viola! The recipe for the calamity.

(Lun, soomeh, if you ever breathe a word about this... )

So One more time!

Ice ice babyy

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18 July 2005

10:41 PM

You think about the equity of life.
You talk about escapism. Run, far away from life.

Think about the ephemeral, the lost.

Think about how some seem effaced from the world, lost in things we cannot and will not see.

What kind of life are we living here. And what are we closing our eyes to? We cannot see, because we choose not to. We cannot understand, because we feel not the pain- the physical, and the psychosomatic.

So close your eyes, and feel.

16 July 2005

11:11 PM

openhouse2005

Today held one of the most grueling sessions for choir concert (so far). We had 3 successful run-throughs of our medley, and it ended with everyone exhausted and extremely fatigued, but yet we pulled through the long day together, and sweated it out! Very very impressive. (:

To all you choir members: you guys are one of the most assiduous, diligent people I've seen, and I don't know how else to put this, but it makes your seniors smile with quiet pride whenever they see you putting in all your effort to make our fabulous concert work. Especially a few very enthusiastic people whom I've especially noticed.. After me and sumae practised our dance a few couple million times, a few sec ones were hanging around, singing with us, which was really sweet! And then they went on to practise their little cute bibidi dance by themselves, without prompting from our fantastic chereographer- xinzi! Chanel, Zan, Michelle, Michele, Kayleigh (& anyone else I missed out), you guys are great. (: Choir isn't choir without the very essence of it- the people, and I'm proud to say that our choir is going all the way! Encore!

After the long day, I went to my mum's birthday celebration at Raffles Hotel. I had 2 lobsters the size of both my palms (eaten all by myself), 7 huge prawns, sashimi, choc cake and more choc cake, and milk chocolate ice cream! Happy birthday mummy.. (:

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14 July 2005

8:20 PM

My piano 8 is OVER. Thank God for that. Now I can fully concentrate on other very important things at hand, like the most fantabulous choir concert: Encore!

When 5august. friday. 7.30pm
Where NUS University Cultural Centre

Tickets are sold at all leading departmental stores, or call to order these exclusive tickets, all at only $12 OR $15!

(No I'm kidding. Call me to order..)

be there, or be square (:

Today's sex-education lesson was hilarious, to say the least. We had balloons as co_doms, the classroom floor as a blanket, classmates with multiple s_x partners everywhere, and a variety of STDs (take your pick). The obvious "highlight" of the day no doubt.

I hear the voices of my geog performance task calling. And it's kind of screaming in my ear. I hope I get to sleep tonight..

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13 July 2005

6:30 PM

i believe in my dreams.

because dreams are my future.

do you.

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11 July 2005

10:20 PM

i'm still breathing.
i'm still alive.

.. although I've got a wicked headache, and my eyes refuse to open (typing with eyes closed isn't the most productive.)

and i'm feeling very off. I don't know whether many people know how off feels like. But it kind of feels like the word itself. Just say off in your head 5 times. That's how it feels.

Why? Because some things have happened that made me go "oh wow" in a not- so- positive way. And it's the way you'll say "i never knew.." or "i didn't know.." by dragging the last word of the phrase. (What is my problem. This should be purely conversational)

i am a l i v e. barely. but clinging there.

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04 July 2005

2:50 PM

there's a sign on the wall
but she wants to be sure
and you know sometimes words have two meanings

In the tree by the brook
there's a songbird who sings
sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven

_there's a feeling I get when I look to the west
And my spirit is crying for leaving
_in my thoughts I have seen
rings of smoke through the trees
and the voices of those who stand looking

_ and it's whispered that soon,
if we all call the tune
then the piper will lead us to reason

_and a new day will dawn
for those who stand long
and the forest will echo with laughter..

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