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Chinese Os are TOMORROW! To the people reading this today, GO AND REST YOUR EYES NOW!


this is the chinese. *has violent urges to puke*

Technically I should be taking the same advice, but Mendelssohn is making me really sleepy with his aria. (Go listen to symphony 92.4. You'll emerge a changed person after that. The Philharmonic Orchestra just makes me want to forget about academics, pick up my violin and practice until I become a virtuoso/ violin prodigy and perform in the orchestra with worldwide acclaim.) Unfortunately, I have big dreams which will stay just as they are- just dreams.

Anyway, there are a gabillion things I want to say here, but due to severe time constraints (it's time for my mid-morning nap :D), I shall cut cut cut.

Firstly, reading the newspapers in the morning, and surprise surprise! Steph and Amanda were featured in the papers.. Congrats to amanda!

Here are the pictures from our last chinese class 2005, and hopefully in my life..


This is lu lao shi! He's one of my fav. chinese tchers.. I couldn't take very good pictures of him cos laoshi's camera shy!


we bought macs breakfast for him! hahaha my chi. class rocks.


the breakfast..




sher playing with the happy meal toy! You will never have guessed that Os was 3 days away lol..


this is soomeh's warped SNOOPY toy. I don't know, but "poonsy" just sounds very very wrong.


sher's pancakes. yummy.


rnng (:


you would think van was studying how to be a rocket scientist, rather than looking at sher cutting pancakes ;)


sherlyn can seriously butter pancakes until it's more like butter with a taste of pancake rather than butter on pancakes lol.

My last chinese mugging session 2005
Mugging (or trying very hard to mug) was really fun with huannie, pet, rnng and eleanor! Man, you guys seriously brighten up this otherwise dull and extremely painful subject.

We were at subway trying to speak in mandarin, and of course to study for Os. Can't say we succeeded much, but hey, when it comes to spending time with friends, or rushing home to mug mug mug, I always stand by the obvious choice. Years from now, am I going to remember my last school day rushing home to pour my heart out on the shou ce (I refuse to say "my shou ce", because I refuse ownership of that otherwise untouched book), or drinking diluted coffee and eating oatmeal cookies with friends? But then again, that's just my opinion..

And by the way, I think I can find many many people who enjoy subway's oatmeal cookies too! Huannie, I am not weird..


see? intense concentration here..


i rest my case!



To anyone reading this before your paper tomorrow, here's wishing you all the best (:

ok.. nap time..

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"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art..
It has no survival value;
rather, it is one of those things that give value to survival."
-C.S. Lewis

I met soomeh and tanneh on saturday for breakfast at delifrance before we went to rj for open house..


the tantilising display..




It is also very like soomeh to pose with the chilli shaker. Why am I not surprised..


This is the ultra sweet surprise they gave me!! It's a survival kit, packed with all the fattening, feel-good candies and chocolates, and a mini joke book to help me get over certain realisations.. It was so pretty, and I was very very touched. Thank you guys.




I think tanneh looks unbearably cute here.. Entirely out of character I'm sure, judging by what she said to sooneh and me today after school! ;) I shall not publicly type it here. Tanneh you owe me.
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The days go by, and we spend our time finishing our options, studying chinese, counting hours till school ends.. I wonder how I'll feel, on 4th nov, when I have to say my goodbyes, and then look back at the last few weeks of my school life, and regret.

Regrets are painful. They are unlike sorrow, because sorrow will diminish with time, but the regrets only get heavier and heavier.. They never lose their stronghold over you, and they grow with every regret added, with every tear cried, with every hug left un-hugged...

I'll move on to another stream of thought then, this is getting all too depressing.

Through certain things which have happened thus far, I've suddenly realised that there is always a limit to how much we can take, and with greater relevance, how much we pretend to take.

It's so terrible how it took such a huge amount of volatile emotions to finally realise what has been all these years. Was I really so blind, or am I then a coward, choosing pathetic blindess over crushing reality, I will really never know.

But one thing I do know, is that I may never be the same again. And can you blame me?

I really wonder how many will try to side-guess this entry, to either fit certain events..

This will probably work out the way it really should, and then it will be time to say our au reviors and move along..

But beneath the dense canopy of what is, and what has been, we can neither see our reflections in the lake, nor hear the silent murmur of the wind beneath the leaves from the pages of Past.

And when we realise, beyond any doubt, that anything that has rightly started, has ended, we will be, once again,

free.

so give me liberty or give me death. Either waxed wings to fly, or I will drown in the sea of self-delusion, with a hopeless illusion of freedom. I cannot keep playing games with myself, becaause I can never win. Then again, not losing isn't such a bad thing either. Perhaps I will always be caught in this fanatical carousel, always playing the same tune, round and round and round again, never stopping, never thinking, never loving,

never knowing.


me and my dearest bro and sis.. Random yes, but I love them all the same. At least I have a constant in life, at least I have people who still believe in me, even I don't know who "me" really is.

When it rains, it pours.
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sec4 netball carn

Dear 410,
Let me start this by saying how absolutely fantastic this netball carn was, and how our special little class gathering at the end made it a milestone in my life at RGS. Every time I pass Wheelock Place, near that little field where people were murdered, where Janell and Sabby sat on an ant's nest, where our faces were hidden in the shadows of the headlamps above... the memories are flying by, and there is so much to say, but yet so little time..


long live class 410 2005.


Everyone was really tired, but we kept going, and that's all that really matters at the end of the day! GO TEAM 410!



me (GS), huannie(GA) n clara(C), with the extremely TALL gargantuan defenders.. But we scored! (:


see her hand?! I almost couldn't see the blasted hoop.. (I don't know how to invert the pic..)


our 1st match (which we won! i luff 410) Me and van.. see the ball go in? (ming as WD)


all geared up and readyyy..


go janessa n yx!



1/2 of the team.. on our winning streak!


alfie n huannie :p




clara is a very fast center.. go clara!



see what i mean?? :p


huannie posing again ;)


my love- kate the shrew! :)


and her sister betty dear. GOSH we were tired and sweaty and uncomfortable, but at least we look happy!


this is ming from the mingnesty.. not difficult to see why! (:


soomehhhhh- 415 won cheer and banner! well done~


mrs ang and her boy..


410... janell sprawled on the ground, huannie and me pretending we're shooting. it's cute how almost everyone is looking everywhere but at the camera!


(singing) 410, 410 won't you marry me....


muacks..


xy and sabby- being their usual..


this is our retard look! unfortunately, xy looks crazy, i look pathetic, and clara looks smug.. haha we rock!


jck ppl..


arranging our fantastic formation (: the view from the bottom.


FOUR TEN! and our fantastic formation.. utter coolness..

It's really funny how different this netball carn is from 310's. Reading last year's entry from my archives, I guess povs have really changed.. (: But of course, some things will always stay the same.

I will upload our class gathering dinner later on.. My finger hurts from all the typing.. It was rather difficult catching the netballs without cringing because of my stupid irritating swollen finger, and I guess we kind of grow up when we do get use to the pain, and learn to ignore.. Throughout the game, I started to fall more and more, which was pathetic considering how I could just trip and not land properly because I was concentrating on not letting the darn ball slip from my hands.. Now, I just want to stay in bed and not move.. Pet and muddy and eleanor, how your injuries are fine!


the disgusting finger.

Meanwhile, THANK YOU 410, for one of the best times in my secondary school life.. I love every one of you..

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Today was a serious confusion of moods and emotions. I guess things just don't work out sometimes. Maybe I should have handled things differently, and many have said I shouldn't apologize for being me. But really, what is me.. I don't think I know anymore.

Why are we always worrying about things that can make us cry.. I wonder. This is the last time I'm ever going to do this ever. I'm really sorry to those who had to endure the torrential downpour. I really should have controlled better, and because this hasn't happened before, it will not again. And I shall confront my QUOTE lack of confidence in my ability UNQUOTE if I could only know what is it really I'm good at. It's frustrating when you think you aren't good enough, because you just know it, like some unspoken fact that you naturally live by but have never really found the need to acknowledge.

Went far east to shop for ms. lim and mr. ho's farewell gifts with frances and alfie! We bought really cute stuff! Then I met rachie at BK and we talked..

Anyone wants to go for breakfast with me before rj?

Anyway, a big thank you to the following people: jingx, dee, eme, glor, shaf, rachie, xy, pet, eleanor, sher, sabby, rnng! (: Thank you.

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Argh. I owe huannie grass jelly! I lost the bet! (sulks)

It started with me being super sad that 410 can't have any more netball practices together, since netball carn is this friday. Then huannie checked the schedule, and she was convinced we had a free block tomorrow, which I didn't believe because I always thought my options were back-to-back.. I just got back to check it up, and yes. I shall admit defeat.. ;)

So anyway, I went window shopping with huannie and rng after options today, then we went subway and chatted for about an hour and a half. I didn't know it was that long! Talking about stuff to the both of them is really stress-relieving. (: I totally love the oatmeal cookie at subway, and the aroma of freshly-baked cookies can seriously elevated spirits and work saliva glands.. Seriously.

Training in the morning was a little demoralising, but we'll pull it up, I'm sure! I have a swollen finger as a result, the ball just went smash! and bent the finger to a obnoxious position, so now it's all purple and red, and twice its normal size. Save me from math test tomorrow.. My finger hurts. Great.


The hotdog finger.. You should compare it with my other finger..

Yesterday was a bad day. I stupidly thought I was well enough to shoot some hoops, even though I couldn't have pe. So I played for 15 minutes, and after that I got subsequently worse. My brain was jumping around in my skull, so I had this insane urge to bang my head on the court, so I kept drinking water to keep my mind off puking. Then huannie kept asking me for some of my virus-contaminated water, and pet stole the bottle for a gulp! You guys, if you get a serious manifestation of the killer flu, too bad!

A BIG THANK YOU to soomeh for coming down with me to sign off, and being naggy by forcing me to take the blasted lift and a cab home even though the invalid (i.e. me) was protesting like crazy. And of course, unceremoniously dumping me in the cab.. I luff you! Thanks carmen, dee, chay, tanneh, pet, xy, sab, daf, etc.. for your concern / calls/ sms! <3 style="WIDTH: 422px; HEIGHT: 314px" height="430" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com" src="http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b321/chermainesings/CIMG2650.jpg" width="422">
this is xh posing..


chay and dee!


i think ah feng looks philosophical ;)




the laughter and the fun :D


our shooters! (:


pet as center!



lohan shooting..

p.s. btw huannie I did that inner child quiz thing, and I act 23 years old, and not 12 (as predicted) okay! Ha!

Ti amo 410~ volerete sempre su..

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