philos
liberté
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memoria

Memoirs of a Geisha was a great film. The cinematography was detailed, and the acting highly convincing. What was infinitely better was the company! I was sitting between william (who would periodically check up on me to make sure I wasn't falling asleep) and nyx, who provided information on what was going on (she watched it before.) Smoot had a theory that the Chairman was gay, but I kept thinking about The Chairman has some maozedong wannabe. I mean, what kind of a name is "the chairman"? Sounds more like some dictator from N Korea if you ask me..

Crashed Hwachong's cny celebrations today! I met up with loads of people, and off the top of my head, there was of course dear sooneh and the ex-rgs people. And I was screaming away when I saw KAIXUAN, ZOE, KIM, and LILIN! The way we were jumping around, one would think we were long-lost sisters separated for 20 years or something. Tracy! JC! YB! SUET! (ok I shall stop screaming virtually). Daphne, xiaole, aiwen, huiqing, junhua, and even daisy, grace, cheresa! I didn't realise how much I missed them till I saw them dancing their bottoms off, and Aries and Apollo dances were uber cool. hc had great atmosphere btw, but it's r-a-f-f-l-e-s for me thanks. (:

Sooneh I miss you..

Today A13A did some random chatting and games playing at our first meeting place. IT WAS SO FUN. My goodness, we (and especially charissa haha) kept going "again again AGAIN", and there is a little bit of scandal emerging, thanks to my tactless brainless comments (I really didn't mean anything. Honest.) I think sometimes I forget it's a co-ed school, and there are some stuff you can't say without sounding too compromising. For the record, thank you for volunteering, but I don't wish for anyone to have any 'thing' for me. Hmm. People really shouldn't think too much lah. (Notice how the singlish term has made the above comment more flippant and nonchalant. I realised Jamie Yeo enjoyed using it during her radio stint. Not that she's detached, it just evades responsibility from the comment.)

Also, it was extremely cool when we cornered william at kfc and totally did a "girl thing", to quote him. We were yabbering away like there was no tomorrow, asking him all sorts of "what do you boys really think anyhow"s. Then we would giggle and laugh, and he would look puzzled and ask whether it was a "girl thing". Giggling is good for you. It works your vocal muscles haha.

That's that. I am terribly tired now.
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To get me through today, I have a new bouquet of hothouse Australian flowers on my dinner table. I really am constantly amazed at the creations God has blessed us with, and through this long dreary painful sickly day, we are reminded that "The Lord will Fulfill His purpose for me" (Psalm 138:8), and His love endures forever.


that pink monster flower feels like velvet to touch. I didn't even know such flowers existed.




that's my fav vase of french crystal..


[edit] I've realised ever since, I have never been happy with the things I've received. There are always others who kill the joy within, and I am left with the remains of whatever happiness I can salvage. Tell me, is that fair. Why is it that every time, ever since, I have never truly been able to celebrate. Just to celebrate. It must be me then. The fault must be mine. [/edit]

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Le Grand Voyage: Humans movie outing!
Headache, pained ankle, and warm fuzzy feeling

I am rather emotionally exhausted right now, after the terribly frightening sprint all the way home, and of course the movie itself. While running home with my heavy bag and blurry eyes in the dim lighting of moth-infested streetlamps, I kept hearing some weird guy behind me, and he was walking behind me the whole 16 min journey. I proceeded to become extremely paranoid and freaked out, and so decided to quicken my half-running pace.

The guy was just behind whistling some weird thing, and so I thought about Red Dragon or that scary cannibal movie I watched once, and become more than marginally freaked out. I grabbed my phone and started to dial the only person that came to mind, who happens to have a school extremely near my place.

Because no one picked up the phone, that was the final straw that broke the merlion's claw. I ran all the way home like some half-crazed dimwit afraid of her own shadow (haha no not funny). In my anxiety to get home, I missed a step, and proceeded to tumble down the short flight of stairs. I may have internal bleeding, but that remains to be seen. No actually, all that happened was I twisted my left ankle again.

Yes, again. I have a weak left knee, so naturally my left ankle tends to be very off, so I sprain / twist it at any time, any place. The last time this happened was in France. How happening.

So yes, here marks the end of my ankle rant.

As for the movie, it was fantastic if and only if you have someone to discuss it with. If not all the nuances you've missed out, or the significance that seemed so insignificant would be just lost in translation. (Will speak of movie in due course.) Tomorrow..

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W.H.Auden

There will be no peace
Though mild clear weather
Smile again on the shire of your esteem
And its colours come back, the storm has changed you:

You will not forget, ever,
The darkness blotting out hope, the gale
Prophesying your downfall.

You must live with your knowledge,
Way back, beyond, outside of you are others,
In the moonless absences you never heard of,
Who have certainly heard of you,
Beings of unknown number and gender:
And they do not like you.

What have you done to them?
Nothing? Nothing is not an answer:
You will come to believe - how can you help it? -
That you did, you did do something;
You will find yourself wishing you could make them laugh,
You will long for their friendship.

There will be no peace,
Fight back, then, with such courage as you have
And every unchivalrous dodge you know of,
Clear in your conscience on this:
Their cause, if they had one, is nothing to them now;
They hate for hate's sake.


I'm dying for The Year of Magical Thinking, but mum refuses till I've finished Saving Fish From Drowning. Woe befall my literary journey. The way is narrow and winding indeed.

Daph says a retail snob is someone who, for example, would rather buy one expensive pair of italian shoes than 10 other pairs of MIC shoes. And she thinks I'm a retail snob. That sounds mean. But let's face it, if you buy that pair of italian pumps, though it'll probably set you back by 3 months' allowance, you can rest assured that the quality of the leather will never allow it to break while walking, whereas no one can vouch for those 10 pairs of unknown MIC shoes. Shouldn't it be quality over quantity?

So make the right choice today: be a retail snob! (: (to be said in a salesman tone.)

Yesterday, despite feeling extremely weirded out and out of sorts, I was sad that it was friday, because saturday didn't have school! This is such a novel feeling for me. I really thought RJ would be so different and alien, but it's just a whole new experience, and a fun one at that.

What's infinitely better is that you get wacky antics guys like to engage in. And the thing about A13A is that the guys are all very very nice, and you just automatically love them (we're talking platonic here), so you understand when they have to do/say weird, funny, crazy things. And class discussions/tutorials are seriously engaging. I can just sit in one spot for the whole hour and stay entirely absorbed and engrossed in the lecture during lit / KI. It's all great.

Another thing so very different, is that my class is made up of fellow humanities-lovers, and that is TOO COOL. (Not to say I don't miss 410. I really really do. Thank goodness for all the waves and hugs and smiles when I see you guys. You really never know what you've had till it's gone.)

I mean, the humans oh-so-frequently bash up the sub-humans! Especially during lectures with certain teachers, who cannot stand the dry monotony that is science. But hey, it takes many sorts to make the world go round.. (No I'm kidding, the rotation of the earth has nothing to do with the people on it. And furthermore, the world was already round long before we had people. Unless we have some hidden fantastical theory (like some paleomagnetic evidence thingy). I know my science lah. [footnote: I am not semi-drunk. Inside joke.])

For now, we are fondly termed provisional humans by Mr. McConnell, which suits me just fine.

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I believe in many things..

Firstly, that my muscles ache like crazy. And I have a headache from all that drilling at home. And I'm very frustrated because I cannot access MSN to do my KI presentation due tomorrow. Hooray.

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It is kind of sad when it's a beautiful sunday morning, and I've returned from Devotion Time, only to have nothing to watch on the telly (I don't have cable), and nothing better to do than try out some half-baked personality survey things which half the world has already done a billion years ago. But I shall amuse myself, and just post it up. It was fun doing it anyway.

I'm going out shopping again later on! Taka is having this major sale, and the chevignon stuff are $40 cheaper. That is majorly crazy. By the way, if anyone wants a chevignon skirt that has never been worn before, get it from me ok? I bought it without trying, only to realise it was too big for me. The waist size is 26, so to all 26-ers, tell me. I don't like that it's sitting in my closet crying. So anyway..

Survey
The Yes-es
I miss somebody right now. [you, you and YOU!]

I own lots of books. (hooray for the fiction in the world! and all the virginia woolfs and charlotte brontes!)

I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. [for better or worse, I have definitely changed]

I need money right now. (when do I NOT want more. There is so many things to buy.)

I'm paranoid at times. [oh yes, definitely]

I talk really, really fast. When I'm rattling or when I just feel like it.
(mostly.)

I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (missed calls annoy me.)

I know how to cornrow. (anna taught me!)

I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (very hyper, until 2 hours later, everything drains out. Tragic.)

I think Britney Spears is pretty. (she is.)

I have a lot of friends. (I have a lot of friends I LOVE. And that is you, you, you and you and YOU)

I am currently single. (there is no currently here)

I enjoy talking on the phone. (most definitely)

I LOVE TO SHOP! (YES YES YES)

I enjoy window shopping. (I love it when I have money to buy anything I see)

I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. (hating is a twisted form of love. pure waste of my emotions.)

I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (completely utterly untrue. Mum is my best friend)

I believe in God. (yes, I do. I most definitely do. Where else and what else would I be.)

I've rejected someone before. (oh hmm)

I like someone. (totally! [to be said in a disgustingly bimbotic manner])

I have a lot to learn. (yes I really do. The world is so big, and I am so small.)

I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (alcohol yes. Just a sip!)

I have avoided assignments at work / school. (oh definitely. That's what I have been doing for the first 2 years.)

I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist. (maybe.)

I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. (this is sad, but yes. There is a lot to learn from him.)

I study for tests most of the time. (if there is anything to study, yes.)

I love my job. (that I do.)

I am comfortable with who I am right now. (yes.)

Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (that I do.)

I'm proficient on a musical instrument. (please please please.)

I worked at McDonald's restaurant. (hahahaha!!! This I can proudly say YES! Worked.)

I think water rules. (clean water. Must be clean.)

I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (oh have I)

I have ridden/owned a horse. (it is liberating)

I talk in my sleep. (yes. A lot.)

I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed. (those I do read are definitely not trashy. They will make you cry. And I am never ashamed of what I read)

I colour-code my wardrobe. (haha yes I do.. It's so OC [and no, that does not stand for orange county gross])


The NOs.
I am punk rockish. (the horror.)

Democrat or Conservative Republican. (Neither! Socialist.)

I have dated a close friend's ex. (come on. That is just wrong. There are always left over emotions there.)

I am shy around the opposite sex. (I do not think so actually. But I may not be very comfortable with them)

I have jumped off a bridge. (jumped off a two storey building yes. for fun.. Bridge no.)

I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (anything but.)

I believe in prophetic dreams. (I believe in GOD.)

I love kisses.

I adore bright colors. (no I like rich colours.)

I can't whistle. (how tragic)

I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (a tad too early. Haha)

I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (no. I think and think and think.)

I'm an artist. (wow. I wish.)

I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made. ( love him I love him I love him. But collecting?)

I own more than 20 pairs of shoes. ( I only own 14, four of which I threw away. ): )

I like billabong the most among all the surfbrands. (nope.)

I have a lot of mood swings. (not really.)

Slept with a suitemate. (I do not sleep with anyone.)

I have a hidden talent. (I have talents?)

I'm a pretty good dancer. (I stopped ballet chinese dancing lightyears ago. I do not qualify as pretty good)

I watch MTV on a daily basis.(no cable no life)

I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (wrong wrong wrong.)

I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (no way. And never will I. That one I am most certain of.)

I am usually pessimistic. (no.)

I have worn fake hair / fingernails / eyelashes in the past. (I do not need that. YET.)

I'm TOTALLY smart. (HA. i wish..)

I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (There is no point in that.)
I don't watch much TV these days. (RIGHT.)


oh whew. that was fun.

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A13A ROCKS.

I mean, we can sit around together for 2 hours+ amusing ourselves with weird personal stories and "have you ever"s, and still have a gabillion things to chat about during class lunch at cafe cartel..

We've got a long way to go man..

Thank you God.

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Swensens!

I had another great celebration with friends again, this time it was after cca fest, off to swensens at j8..


SAY CHEESE!!







another earthquake!!


we finished it! ahaha.. yum yum.


haha xiaoyu and me again..







They got me a surprise birthday cake! Chocolate ice cream cake. I was like, no way.. (: And they sang the birthday song all over again at the top of their voices.. 3 times! The first was at the rjc canteen, the second and third both in swensens. I am very blessed indeed. It was very funny too lol.. You girls rock..


make a wish..

TO my dears:
ann tay- the zai bowler and little ms. sunshine..
aster tang- my flexi friend n fish baked rice eater (haha sorry I think fish baked rice is really cute..)
chay ling- you jay chou fanatic. you even got me listening to it on the mrt lol!
clara chong- today's rainbow dresser ;) Yeah RIGHT, the cake was totally complimentary man! (:
dee lwin- the dancer who can dance anything.. and who abandoned us for ballet class today! hmmp!
sabby- the zai water waster. I'm kidding! ;)
xiaoyu- my phototaking buddy. we must continue our discussion soon!
yi xuan- ms. bishan. (: our tour guide to the arcade..

Thanks for today guys. It was nice catching up! We must do this often yeah? (:

My camera didn't have batt left for my holland V thingy, but thanks liying, daphne, sean, for the presents! (:

Peace out.
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Today is THE day! I don't feel any older actually, neither do I feel sexier or spicier haha. It's funny how people think 17 as sexy seventeen or spicy seventeen. Uber coolness. No more sweet 16 then!

Ok my HUGE thanks to these people who remembered! You guys seriously brought a huge grin to my face, and totally cheered up the otherwise dreary, cold and rainy day that is today.. Thanks for the smses, calls, email cards, and for the outings-to-be. Can't wait for later on and wed you guys! And to those who sent the smses at 12am on the dot, you gurls ROCK.

Virtual HUGS go to: (not in any order whatsoever)
elissa kaixuan dee chayling sabby ann xiaoyu clara
jingxuan grace aster pingni sijie serene dawn wen
philip janjan aiwen zan xiaole rene sher pet lunny
meiting tanneh sumae qingqing phil yantong
alvin jason tiff huiyi jeremy

and everyone else who I can't rmb off my head.. Thank you all the same!

Sabby your card is so cute too! muacks.

and I have an invitation to crash hc's campfire from aiwen! Haha.. ;)


Thanks you guys. It's great to be blessed with fantastic friends..

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My Birthday celebrations!

I will be having a few celebrations with few groups of extremely special people, so it's so GREAT that tomorrow is a public holiday! More shopping/ hanging out for me! More spending time with old buddies and new friends! And there's a Charmille outing tomorrow too. It's too bad serene can't come until evening, but then I would be gone..

Anyway, I've had my first birthday dinner with SSSC, which was really fun, like it always is anyhow. (:


(i love this shot. don't know why.)

We went DOME at paragon for dinner, then swensens for an earthquake! I have never eaten an earthquake before (I know I am not in the loop), and it was really cool to have so many flavours and yet be able to finish everything.


my smoked salmon sandwich was great. (:


my birthday ice cream cake! teehee.


no more earthquake!

And how can I forget the good ol' chats. Seriously, all the s__t came out, and we just trashed it all out, with a lot of yelling in public (sooneh's "oh my sh_t!!") and giggling and breaking hearts. Yup, that's us! (:


the last fry no one wanted to eat.. it's always like that.







acting cute. lol. ;)


pouts all around.


kissy kissy pouts.


acting cute lol (:


we were all seriously fooling around. must have been the side effects from soomeh's rum n raisin ice cream lol.


us four.. the waiter who took the shot was like a droid. It was damn cute.

Thank you babes. We will definitely do this again.


Me and sooneh saw cheryl miles in this LIVE advert thing. It was pretty cool, something like what yanzi did for her cd publicity..


SECOND CELEBRATION

My family celebration with my grandma (her's is 9th jan!) was at this fantastically sumptous thai cuisine place near raffles hotel. The food was great. (:


the yummy appetizer..


gramps and granny.. the best in this planet. And my gramps has a passion for Timberland jackets ;)


ahahaha my birthday prezzies nehnehneh. ;) [obnoxious i know]


uncle!!


bro and little dawn the air stewardess.


dawn is so cute and smart i can just kiss her.. Go to this 5 year old for a little talk on indonesia's PM, or Israel's strife. Yup.


And tomorrow is a brand new day! More hanging out! Hooray..

Thank you so much Lord. It's You I'm living for.

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CHARMILLE 2006:

we battled the rain, together. faggits n faggnites forever. (:

serene philip charles- I salute you.

Here are the pictures from philip!


Z kardia


CHARMILLE


this is our fantastic ogl serene! (proposing to asif)


ogl Charles!


philip!


charmille pyramid! And we all go falling down.. (:


qingqing goes DOWN!! haha..


the other side!


chenkai proposing to jingsong! forfeit!


the shoe game!


shaving cream!


rubber band game... the one we lost by A LOT.


spaghetti game. aching legs


zhixu and alvin (:


guy pyramid



lunch together.. (:


our O Nite performance! It was fantastic..

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