31 March 2006
11:01 PM
close your eyes so you don't feel them.they don't need to see you cry.
It's all about contradictions now. It's about clashing emotions, painful revelations, secret messages, tired hearts.
Yes, the heart can get tired of breaking, didn't you know? There comes a point in time when it just cries out;
stop. This needs to
stop. We aren't going any where with this.
But the thing is, you don't really know that your heart has chipped off until you hear the pieces crash. And even then, it may not be your heart breaking. It could be the person next to you, a metre away, three hundred days ago, the other lifetime.
All around we have hearts that are tired,
aching, breaking. We need the healing to
begin. We need to realise that it's time we gave ourselves, and each other, a break.
Sometimes, it is good to run away. To run far away into this form of oblivion even you don't know of. And then, when you've reached that stage where nothing can ever hurt you, and you feel like you're on the top of the world, you will realise that maybe nothing really mattered, and nothing will matter anymore.
Then where will we be?
But until then, I am glad for the following. Thank you
sumae for always being there. thank you
tanneh for listening and understanding. thank you
lun and
xiumz. You guys were there to catch me when I fell.
I'm falling.
I keep on falling. Maybe this is a perpetual state of unrest. This sense of falling.. Maybe it's here to stay.
It can't be that bad actually.
I could get use to this._____________________________
