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The night came and went too quickly. And all too soon, it was over.

Just like that.

I love my band(s). I really really do. We guys really clicked from the beginning, and we pulled through it all, the multiple practices on our weekends, the sms-ed meetings, the semi-productive canteen meeting, the performance. Sara's concentration lapse during her Georgia solo (I didn't notice!), Adam's "whatever should I do with my solo?" for quando, Boyle's "I don't have my guitar today. I don't have any amp", Tania's "I can't remember what I played yesterday!", Gaoyuan's "I can't tighten anything else on my sax!", and my lousy attempts at scat singing, and the voice dying away just 3 hours before performance. Man, it was a rollercoaster.

Just 3 hours into the performance, I realised my voice was dead because my throat hurt badly, and my voice came out so disgusting it was very disgusting. I was popping lozenges like there wasn't a tomorrow. And then we had a super long practice the day before, and gaoyuan and tania were playing at the mini amphi. The sax sounded way out of tune, and everyone was panicking because there wasn't anything gaoyuan could do, save tighten weird knobs and keep playing. It was a whole semitone higher. I ran to LT2 in a frantic attempt to check pitch. And taadaa! The piano was a semitone lower! My goodness we almost had multiple heart attacks then and there. It was little things like that..

"Yes... I would give my heart gladly."

Then the performance. The spotlights, the microphones, the eye contact, the songs, and all the pre-concert jitters going on backstage just before. I hate the feeling of waiting. Of possible failure, because you know you cannot and should not fail, but yet, who knows really.

"Blue moon.. Now I am no longer alone.. "

Sara prayed a short prayer with kelly, james, adam and me. It gave me peace. It stood as a reminder that I'm singing for God. My gift, if it really is one anyway, is from Him. The opportunity is from Him. My friends, my fellow band mateys, all from Him. And then I wasn't afraid anymore. I realised that if I continued thinking I had somehow, by my own pathetic human means, developed my own voice, then I would be sadly mistaken. I would be so naive.

Soli deo gloria. Always.

So we went up. I sang to the crowd, and among them were the fantastic people from a13a. The whole row of them were there for sara and me, and some even with bated breath and very stressed vibes. Most looked on, but I saw sarah grin, smoot and michelle smiling, sabby waving the pink flower. And it was all great. Really. Smoot sent an sms just before "don't worry the class will support you no matter what". Sara and I really felt that support, and it is things like this that really make you go: thank you God. For all of them.

Haha I think a few people liked my "strut" or gallop as my sis called it. I know I was walking a little too much, but it helps gets rid of nervousness you see. I can't stand in one spot for too long without feeling fidgety, so I walk. (Or prance, or sashay, or strut, judging from the comments heh) Vivek thought it was cool, but mum said she heard some fellow behind her go "why does she walk so much". Oh wells. At least I have "some man lungs" even though I really am not one. (:

Thank you smoot mich sab william martin peck annliang ben rayner juliet mingyan. Thanks you mich and sabby for giving me pre-concert hugs! Thanks bren for the flower before. It was so very nice of you! Thank you a13a for the sms-es just before. I'm having carrot and broccoli soup for dinner too!

"Tell me when will you be mine".

Thanks to tanneh and lun for being such great seating companions. Teehee. I loves you two so much.

Thanks to anyone reading this who went to the concert. I really hope you enjoyed it, because we sure enjoyed performing it. (:


And to adam boyle gaoyuan sara tania: we did it.

"the road leads back to you"


thanks to peck and al and boyle for carrying it for me at j8!






yihan said we looked like sisters! Yippee (:






huanglu! I shortened the 30 cm difference in height! hehe







(more photos in other cameras (: )
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