17 April 2006
9:45 PM
There will come a day, when I will look back on A13A
and say
those were the days..
Chatting with Janessa today, her reminding me how she used to get singing lessons from me before our Woman's Voice options.. Seeing alfie along corridors, having economics tuitorials with moni and janell. It's spatially different.
You know what?
I miss those times.
I miss the crazy singing lessons after school, the weird projections we'll make. I miss opening my locker, and always squashing the hanging bear above it. I still haven't found out who it belonged to, can you believe that?
I always wanted to know, since sec3. But I've never found out.
I miss the curry chicken rice on thursdays. I miss "i'm on a diet" darling xiao yu, Panadol gulping sabby, sunshine ann tay, ribena chay, tennis pro lwin, pipa jing xuan.. and everyone else. I miss shaking my head at the weird neoprint taking antics, and being forced to take a few myself.
Those were the wacky times when we were just ourselves, crapping away. And crapping back then actually
meant something you know?
I miss the rgs choir. I miss walking back with lun, always with many things to update. I miss singing with xinzi and dear smoot, and laughing like maniacs with a few of the best girls in the world- SSS. I miss blasting, I miss conducting warm ups. And oh my goodness I miss conducting. I miss sharing this special bond with the whole choir, and looking over at lun, lyn, smoot, tanneh, and then we'll smile at each other, only because we know we're really making that music, only because
we could.
we're growing up guys. (Do you miss the times when 'guys' meant the girls, where you didn't have to specify?)
And it ain't so bad really. You make new pals, you learn new things in a fantastic environment that pushes you hard, and so far.
And then you count your blessings, and smile.
But before you move forward, before you move on, you close the chapter of Past, the part where you let go to move ahead with the long and dreary journey.
Maybe some part of me has already let go. Or maybe I'm still hanging on. I'm good at hanging on, really.
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