24 May 2006
10:50 PM
KI Common Test has probably permanently damaged my brain. It doesn't seem to function properly any more (or maybe it never has haha). I think too much thinking in a day is detrimental. Shall cease thought immediately.
But before I degenerate into incoherent rambling, I shall just insert a short update on whatever it is I will update on.
Dance outing at swensens was cool. Ate overly-sweet apple crumble and discussed some hot stuff and other cool people. Mdm ong thought the crumble was unbearably sweet, and I could actually feel the undissolved sugar particles crunching and destroying my teeth. It was saturated with sugar my goodness. Left earlier though cos mum wanted me home very soon lol.
So on that sugar high, I went for some good ol retail therapy, which always works. Heeran, John Little was having a summer sale! I emptied my wallet, but the stuff I bought were all necessities so
haha I win.
Made a few revelations about myself, but nothing no one will be interested in.
I think I've become a monster. No, really. After some serious introspection and reflection during my alone time, I've realised that I'm becoming more and more resentful and terrible and an all-in-all horrible person. I didn't use to be this way. Maybe because things have changed now, circumstances are different, people think different and are different, and nothing is staying the same. But how is that even a valid excuse. During shopping I was reminded of my cell mate anna's advice: reconciliation with Him. I need that now. I should think about this. I should start realising that this cannot continue, or I'll just become one of those I never want to be. Then what will I have become.. I wouldn't even want to be me any more.Ok so good night. The night is pretty stagnant today. Must be the effects of a sugar drain.
Am looking forward to class sleepover and other coolio stuff coming in June! Have to go buy things for pre-u seminar though. That only means one thing: more shopping.
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