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Something weird happened today. Was walking back from school when a random guy came up to me and asked to borrow some paper and pen to write an important address, and he sounded really stressed so I agreed. He wrote his number and his address and passed them to me and said that if I weren't too busy I could give him a ring or go to his house for a drink one day. And then he said something else which I forgot because I was too busy making a run for it. Left my pen in his stupid hands though. Will be more careful with lending people pens it's not as if I have very many anyhow. ):

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Random thoughts follow. Of no importance really.

I guess sometimes you just get tired of people misunderstanding you all the time, when they don't know why you do the things you do, and when you'd think they cared enough to, well, care. I guess sometimes you just want to walk away.

Brother Xingxing said something which sounds strangely like what marcus would say (don't ask me how I know these things. I just do). He said it sucks when people think they know you.

hmm.

It's a tiring conversation, getting informed by others how you look so dead or aloof (yeah, dao) sometimes. Bren is probably sick of it as well (: , and in a way, I guess I am too. I remember angsting about it once, when all I wanted to do was to tell the world that I'm not the way I really look, and really empty all the angst man.

But now, I guess if they want to judge me based on how I look, there really isn't much I can do. I guess it is ultimately about either trusting your own gut feeling, or trusting the person. We all got to choose in some point or another.

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Had another walk with lunny today (: Thanks girl it's great when we understand. power to the girls!

And it's good to put things into perspective with smoot and tanneh. It really is. Sometimes I guess we all need some time to measure and weigh the things that are worth something, and the things that maybe just aren't.

And it's tough letting go of things, but let's face it. Life's tough. To elucidate (harhar), kx and kim came over to their lt2 during the hwach ki symposium, and the feeling of seeing them again was beyond happiness. But it sort of made me feel, a little sad. Not regretful. Sad.

And then you think about the choices you've made in your life- how you made some really good friends you know you'll meet 20 years down for a cup of tea and spa at banyan tree ( :D ), but also how you wish you could also continue the friendships forged long ago.

You want to split yourself into 2. But then you learn to place your life into perspective, and you grow from there. kx - if you're reading this: I really really miss you. (:

One day, when we are wiser, when the whole world is older, and when we have learnt.. Maybe then I'll really understand why.

Am glad peck's back! (:

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