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This from suwan:

"i want to share this story with all of you, my dearest most precious friends.

don't cry anymore, let God dry up these tears for you. we're all in this together, we'll all pull through together.

The Fern and the Bamboo

One day I decided to quit... my job, my relationship, my spirituality...

I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the
bamboo?" "Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo".
He said. "In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit."

He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant. But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to
survive.

I would never give any of my creations a challenge they could not handle."

He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. I would not quit on the bamboo, and I will never quit on you."

He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern, yet, they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come, "God said to me. " And you will rise high."
"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you
can."

I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these
words can help you see that God will never give up on you. Never regret a day in your life.

Good days give you happiness. Bad days give you experiences. Both are essential to life. Keep going...

Happiness keeps you sweet,

Trials keep you strong,

Sorrows keep you human,

Failures keep you humble,

Success keeps you glowing,

but only God keeps you going!

-

Sorry for flooding the dance studio.


Thank you jerrine suwan vernus xinying yihui pam ivy.

Because i won't forget-

26th January.



marcuslim-

Dude I hope you read this.
Cos I just want to say thanks for the call.
Even though it was midnight, even though you would rather have talked to the cab uncle,
even though you'd rather thought abt your softball sliding, or the gambling money you lost (tsk), even though you needed to look for your primary 2 country erasers for sats, even though you didn't need to hear 'bimbo' talk (coughcough) about the stupid corners in the classroom..

I laughed more than I did in a week.

I am sudoku climbing out of the well.

Thanks anyway.

(:

I guess all I wanted to know was
where were you when it all came down.



FALLEN click
Sarah McLachlan


Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight


Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear



Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low I have messed up
Better I should know

So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...


We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone


But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal



It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear..


I've fallen... I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know

So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...


Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know

Oh they turned their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed




-
A nice song on the shuffle mode..

100 words

"Knowing my self, my true size in relation to the events of my life.

And in the lives of others.

Knowing the extent of my weaknesses, the extent of my strengths. An honest perspective of who I am, neither as good nor as bad as I often believe I am.

'The wisdom to know the difference.'

Knowing in my guts that without prayer I am a vessel with no rudder and no compass,

no way of charting where I am,

which direction I am headed.

Service without expectation, a quiet love.

It is not mine, it is ours, a gift.. "

Happy eighteenth, GLORIA ONG..



We'll continue our fight over our bestfriend some other time ;)

Cheers to JCK days!(:




_____________________________

I miss orientation07.

i miss L'atte as L'atte, not as rj students..


i miss the retarded goofs dr tomato and colonelblack. aquamarine + cholorophyll's b_tchfights.
sunshine's sunshine.


fingerprint powder!(:


reassuring rach, and actually reassuring myself. getting bullied by brian the bully. sliding around the stage with jieliang, frisbee guru. fighting for the comfy chair with reuben.

hugged by lun. eating poshnosh with gen. choreo with jiayi- i loved singing in the rain.

doing sl_t dances like wang's maneater.



It's like the mind is half drenched in.


Soggy with tired connotations, all fluff.

but things have changed. its the atmosphere of .

it's like imagining your alter reality. something that just doesn't exist.

but keep trying. maybe one day you will finally make it true.


"it amuses me to hear phony people talk."
that is one of the most memorable quotes in storyline.

so pathetically ironic. Everyone's like that.


aiyah.




i told tanneh all good things seem to come in threes.

(:

SSC + S.
New Dance School.
Hippos.

Besties.


Thank you God, for blessings. I've so many angels in my life.
__________________________________
We are His greatest love.

I'm gonna be a reflector. I'm gonna show them Your glory.
I'm gonna let the whole world know that You're living in me.

Thank you God.

There were so many times today that He saved me from myself, from falling from utter exhaustion, stress, worry, a whole and complete mess that is myself.

This morning I woke up only to feel strangely like crying. Which is so pathetically melodramatic, unfortunately. But I scrolled around for music to push me through the long hike to commonwealth and the longer day ahead.

I will Run to You - hillsongs.
That was the song.

He told me to wait on Him. He told me that I can do all things through Him, who strengthens me.

And I needed faith.



I don't know how, but most things started clashing today. Class fellowship clashed with the start of vocals auditions which I couldn't miss. Auditions clashed with chinese dance prac revisions and cny rehearsals..

I said I would go for class fellowship. I couldn't make it through the day really. Crazy headache.

Stayed for the whole of auditions. Worried about missing out syf revisions and cny performance placings. Maybe they wouldn't let me dance, maybe I'd forget all the steps...

Turns out jerrine told me that they only spent half an hour revising, and I was placed in the dance, dancing second row next to yihui.


Audible whew.




I have to do my lit essay now. I have one last paragraph to write before I officially demoralise myself and the poor teacher who has to mark the cwap I write.



Last night. I wanted to cry and I needed to laugh.

Thank you Kaixuan. I read your message just before I worried myself to sleep. You're an angel..

And marcus- what can I say.. You asked for a life update at the very moment I wanted to drop dead. fantastic timing buddy.
thank you for bringing me back to reality. thank you for honesty, and for being stoopid..


how great. says:
eh shit i'll be damn fun if we go overseas together lah.

cher ACHING says:
my sister...
cher ACHING says:
remember her?
how great. says:
HAHAHA
how great. says:
DUDE.
I JUST REMEMBERED.

cher ACHING says:
sheed this is like memory lane. sobsob
how great. says:
WE GAVE HER RUBBER BANDS TO PROTECT HERSELF.
how great. says:
LOL.
cher ACHING says:
HAHAHAHAA
cher ACHING says:
cldn't have been my idea...
how great. says:
FUNNY SHIT.
cher ACHING says:
what is your chinese name ah
how great. says:
and it was some sort of serious proccession.
how great. says:
the handing over of the sacred rubber bands.


childhood makes me cry.


cher ACHING says:
i don't think i can keep up with all of this anymore.
cher ACHING says:
something's gotta give, you know...?

how great. says:
greedy girl.


And I see the truth in that. (:

ah don't make me cry leh.


I'm going to work faster. I'm not going to angst.

I have 31 unread messages and suddenly, 12 msn convos pop up.. (not that I'm complaining lah.)

Yeah. Alright.

tell my back to stop aching. tell my knees to stop bruising and I WILL be better.


aiyoh....

thank you joel..

did you hear? final ticket design due 3 days ago. Send final design for printing on 19th jan.

yesyes i'll get it done tonight.

yeah we have a camp too.

but it clashes with my other camp. I can't be I/Cs for everything. sorrysorrysorry.

auditions wed 2pm - 7pm!

syf practice on wed for 3 hours. don't be late..


-

yes yes. I won't. I won't be late. I'll be here, I'll be there, I'll try to be everywhere..


I won't let you down.

Promise.

It is 14 days after the new year. I greeted the new year as cheerily as I could. Happy cough NEW wheeze YEAR sneezefaintdies.


sickSICKsickSICK. Not that I'm complaining.

Well YES I AM complaining, soshootme.


So far, it's been a blast. Good blast and bad blast. A blast nonetheless.


Ok, try writing a thesis statement for books you've never read in your life.
Try going kino on a cold day with a runny nose and no friends and a generally terrible headache. Try ordering a nice chocolate frapp that cost bomb and having it taste like chocolate watery ice.
Dammit.



Thank you dear friends for hitting my back everything I cough. It means a lot to me. Really I'm not kidding I'm not trying to be funny there is nothing funny about coughing.

Being sick is not so bad. You can look forward to nicer days ahead.


Why does it have to be so cold everyday?
Why does the sky have to be grey with melancholy?
Why must my mum be sick too? Everyone's so worried.


I've got to look for something more than this.




That's how time slips away.

Not by the seconds of wasted sand through the hour glass, hurtling into the black unknown where those lost creatures go.

Through things not yet done, left unfinished, never started.

This is where it starts, all that lost time...
all that black matter.

Today's service was one of the most uplifting.. I've never felt more renewed, stronger, since after...
and I'm getting better too.


Thank you Lord.

More of You, less of me.


Because I am one of the strongest people you know, I'm also the weakest you'll ever know..


Stuff

- orientation 07
- storyline
- CCA Fest i/c
- C. dance auditions (6hours)

- Chinese dance camp prep
- dance programme+ publicity i/c
- Concert ticket design deadlines overdue ):

- Jazz auditions (10hours)
- Jazz camp
- C. dance SYF
- Footloose! (concert)
- BB Drama Fest (??)
- Jazz Concert


I think I can cope this year..



because I wanna soar..



To bren- loveyou. thanks for pretty present.
To xinying- please get well soon
To soomeh- I'll keep praying. Stay strong..
To marcus- forgiven (:

Thank yoo suwan for your blog dedication(:

Keep fighting on and pressing forward, because our battle belongs to the Lord! Muacks.

















(:

THANK YOU.


soomeh tanneh peck weilip aditi william teddy
vernus jerrine ivy xinying pam suwan mengyuan jo esther
diedre joel
sabby anntay

I cried on my 18th birthday. I thought 17 was such a nice age..

You're young enough to get away with things, but you're old enough, too.

-Liv Tyler

I feel like death's best friend.

and I have 52 unread emails.

Ugh.

and a happy new year to you. (: