02 March 2007
10:31 PM
barre can kill. ): back cracking..
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Our tickets have been cut. Ah well.
I try putting things into perspective really. On one hand, it'll be my last time dancing, probably ever. I can't afford any more stupid injuries. Quite painful and sian. And I'm really tired. And I don't think I'll ever get to dance with my dancers, so there's really no point after that. Then again, if you really think about it.. It's just another concert. Just another time to dance, and it doesn't really matter if there are 5 or 5million people watching me.
I have my audience of One.
I realised (after muling over it for a really dumbly long time) that all these things about tickets and who'll get them and random stuff like me promising and all that rubbish.. It's just pointless. Those are just tickets to some concert, so I'll get over it.
Ok I haven't been around lately. Most of the time I zone out, cos I think I'm pretty tired after dance everyday save tuesday which is my meetings day. 17 hours a week, syf is coming..
I must be focused.
I always say this, but one day I'll tell everyone that I love them. I just never get down to showing it actually..
Funny how some people think friendship is a game. Pity. I have first hand experience of the 'not knowing what something is worth until it's gone' thing. So I know what something means to me.
Ugh today I did a mean thing ): ): I feel quite awful about it. I feel like an ingrate. Sorry. ):
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Today laoshi commented on my grande jete, which is an improvement. Thank God. (:
Dinner with vernus after dance. It was really really nice to sit quietly and have her update me on all the scandals and the happy things and the sad things too. Finally..
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/ grace glides on blistered feet.
