21 March 2007
3:56 PM
I'm glad to come back to tiramisu gelato and b&jerry's cookie dough. (which doctor says cannot cos they sit too heavy on the stomach but ____)i'm glad for small blessings, cos these days have just been not so good.
I just plug on the symphony 92.4 and space out and then finally sleep. wake up intermittently cos muscles start aching. Too cold or something I dunno but the meds don't work all the time and when they don't... i hate it.
well i guess i'm sorry i don't matter enough. I knew it'll turn out this way but I pretended it wouldn't anyway. If I expect too much of things then my bad, but somehow I don't think I do. When I smile,
I want to mean it. I went school today wanting so much to retrace my steps and go home cos I'm not very ready to start talking like a normal person.
if this is self-pity i don't care i'm finally well to angst and type stuff out so shoot me.then I met jerr and she accompanied me for my lunch at main canteen with toonwen and we had a nice time teasing cheryl and nicolette / china about eyecandy and gay hair clips and stuff that don't matter very much to many people especially during ct period, but matter a lot to me.
I thank God for people like them.
I hate vomiting I hate feeling giddy I hate this sick dehydrated feeling I know I only have myself to blame so too bad.My brother is a lifesaver. Orange juice coming up. Something that will stay.
After everything, I'm going to take that phone off the hook and
disappear for a while.
After cts I'm meeting kx. That is the sole the
only thing I'm looking forward to. Anything else can just go self-destruct.
Straight shoulders, come on. No one's dying. No one's going away. Everyone's still here. Shadows on the walls. But still here.I think I've wasted so much time being strong, and moving along. But everything's still
misunderstood anyway.
So i'll try and do it right
this time around.
there are some things I can go without.
