16 April 2007
12:02 AM
I know it's late and I should be sleeping or at least going to sleep or otherwise
try and
at least take my books out of my bag so I can
pretend I even
looked at them. Or maybe try reading some geog for tomorrow's DRQ which I am totally not caring about..
But anyhow I just feel a tad bit frustrated, and I don't know if I don't have any right to or whatever, especially since I've been blessed so much, or that today was a great day cos the baking session was fruitful and my uncle's birthday bash rocked (as usual) and that was my week's
saving grace..I just need to get this out of my system.
Don't mess up. I'm sick and tired of saying goodbye to people and I don't want to do it ever again but IF I HAVE TO, I will. Call it self- preservation, self- respect, finding self - fulfillment. whatever.
I am tired of everything. everything SINGLE wrong move. all of it.
And i think i don't really know what i'm talking about, or what i'm referring to, because none of this makes sense. but somehow it's how i feel at the moment.
and btw i don't see how knowing one is b______ actually makes being b_____ right. again, this is obscure cos it probably doesn't even refer to anyone.
but why does it always end up this way. I think it's a curse. Or maybe I should be more wary. FORGET about the benefit of doubt thing. Srsly.
because i am really so tired of it all. really really.
ok i've finished angsting. well
not really, but i should really go sleep.
SYF IN 2 DAYS.i can't wait for it to be over, but yet I don't want it to come.. It's too beautiful for the once only on stage. Too painfully beautiful.
