30 April 2007
9:24 PM
my back is aching
for no good reason, but I thought I'd blog about today because everything changes, every day. And somehow I don't want to forget the process, even though everything was a big mess and will still be on wednesday.
There were many 'milestones' today, and when time repeated itself. But I'm used to it really.
Life's like that.
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Today was
Happy Muffin Day. (: My first attempt at baking
blueberry muffins, with
a lot of advice from pammie, and utensils from ivy haha. Vernus didn't want to eat until an hour after ivy did, in case ivy started quote "
foaming at the mouth" unquote. -_- Vernus SUCKS.
it's amazing what self-raising flour and heat can do.
heehee.
Today xy made a lot of sense regarding religion and faith. In a way, people need to believe in order to see. But it was a good discussion. (:
Chionged banner painting with esther today (: I am so beat, and so in need of an artistic hand. We got modern dance's jonathan to help us with the pointe and ballet shoe, so it looks fab now thanks to him..
Me and suzie have established that she (okay,
we) expect too much. But ah well.. What to do what to do. I guess disappointment is always the flavour of the day.
and when i need you, you're almost here.The saddest thing I heard today was
"
no don't hug me.. I might cry".
Ok the rest is just personal stuffs..
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To my dear friend- zhixu:Giving up is the hardest part, and we're like that. We hate giving up even when it hurts to continue, even when there isn't any point in continuing, when there is a dead end looming, and yet we press on. For what, for who, I don't know. But I guess there comes a point when enough has to be enough, when every time dance ends, we drag our feet to the next destination, our next practice, the one we always dread. We walk alone because the road is long and lonely, and there will not be anyone next to us. Not now, not this time.But the thing is- how are we to know we can't do it. We've always done it- perfectly flawless, with ease. Why not this time..The stakes are so different. The things we pursue are no longer the stuff made of dreams. Everything has in an instant, in a year, changed.I wish I could tell you to continue doing the things you do, because we all know you do it so well. And the high of competition, of the adrenaline, the drive, reaching for it, grasping it, holding it.. But you know what tune everyone's singing to. And it isn't really Give Up. It's Move On. Thank you for being such a motivating J2 dance I/C. Our dance wouldn't have been possible without you. I don't know if this is enough for you to forgo your other dream, but we hope you know that this final J2 Dance does mean the world (well, half of it.. The other half goes to syf (: ) to us, and we're gearing up for the final showcase. Little by little. Like we wrote: to soar- to dare. we live the dream. So don't be sad, don't cry anymore. But if you must, cry and let go. We've all got broken dreams scattered along the way, but some don't matter soon enough. Soon enough.. We'll jia you together ok? Wei4 meng4. (: (: Love you!
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