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On this dark and coldly painful day, listen to Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. So you can cry and feel angsty emo, then get better.. I would put up the youtube vid but not today I guess..



where is home on the milky way of stars

i hope to find a little peace of mind



Today was terrible because we officially handed over our EXCO positions for jazz to the j1s, and dance has finally decided on the new dance exco. And all of a sudden I felt like something was so rudely snatched from me, when I entered and they asked me to quickly say my farewells (all the J2s said theirs already) and I didn't know what to say, so I just crapped up some 15 second farewell that didn't sufficiently cover what I really felt (when will it really ever..) and then the new exco had a meeting with my exco (yes, MY exco) and we passed on responsibilities..

And I didn't even catch my breath and I wonder what just happened.


Then something horrible happened and I felt so worried and upset and scared because I know ABOVE ALL, family truly matters the most and I sort of know how being terrified feels like. And everyone knows that you can say PRAY and it will all be better but yet you are still so frightened and all you feel like asking is WHY.


And there's a huge degree of helplessness one feels when the matter is not something we can control. Not something we can help make better.



But anyway, to YOU- you stay strong and we'll all trust Him. Love you lots and lots and He does too! (:






I don't want to go school tomorrow actually, but I will lah. Because there's dance and I have responsibilities and I want to talk to some of my dearest friends..


And wonder why he wanted me to say goodbye to him... ?




It is highly paradoxical, the way we pull through the days during jazz / dance prac and work and work and work and do admin stuff and be beezy beezy bee
and then be so sad when it will all end.


wow. I'm actually so afraid it will be all over.


I will concentrate on saying my mini goodbyes some other day. Was on msn with mutton last night, and it felt like I was already saying my goodbyes.

"i don't know how i'm ever gonna say goodbye to you cher"












amazing this entry is so convoluted and random and emo-ish I am irritated that there isn't even punctuation. But yeah it's how I feel.
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TO Sumae (: A rainy day poem for you!


The day is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the moldering wall,
But at every gust the dead leaves fall,
And the day is dark and dreary.


My life is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
My thoughts still cling to the moldering Past,
But the hopes of youth fall thick in the blast
And the days are dark and dreary.


Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.

-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow





Yupyup. Back to dance night stuff.