13 May 2007
12:39 AM
"dig way down in your heart
you're yearning,
burning for some
somebody to tell you
that
life ain't passing you byi'm trying to tell you
it will if you don't even try."
-footloose
-
i sit here at 1am in the morning. may 13th.
i stuff my face with junk;
bbq peanuts, nougat, merci choc, a jellyheart..
eating makes the numbness stay.. or does it make it go away?
i wonder how i'll feel when i finally go to sleep.. i really want to sleep, but i'm too tired to close my eyes.
and i'm scared about what i'll feel tomorrow. like a big part of JC,
gone. maybe i'll feel empty. then again, it comes and goes. i've had this feeling before. this time shouldn't be any more different.
except it is..
it is.
