This is a long entry. Just a bunch of nonsense strung together to end my boxing day. (:

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I am going to tell you something I don't want to hear.
No that's not right.

I'm going to tell me something I don't want to hear.
Yes that's better.

Now where should I start.

At the beginning sounds like a fine place, but its already been far too long. Time is cut up in little boxes these days, and we're busy saving time away for a more utilitarian use. For one 'later on'.


Maybe I should begin with mr. batchelor's retirement. His leaving to the land of sheep and clean air (both of which are strangely synonymous). and that of Walks. We don't have those here; we have buses, MRTs and running to catch those. No Walks along Trails with Twigs.

But hey it's alright, we're still healthy, even though some of us have to skip meals to stay in shape, while others have to pile on the pounds to look stronger. (it's never in moderation, is it?) We've still got busybusy schedules, trying to live 2 lives at once cos there'll be 2 years gone straight to the Country. Be brave, fellow countrymen. We all have our national duties - 2.1 children, CPF contributions and 4% consumerprice hike. It is a fine city, surely. But that is for another day, the 9th of August.

Now we're trying to enjoy the holidays, and maybe in a lot of ways, we are. We're making new friends of old ones, or at least trying to be friends to our friends who we haven't show a lot of friendliness to. How were we to know about Regret? There are a lot of "i told you so" s these days. "I told you to treasure me, now i'm going and you're left behind". Or is it that I am the one going, and you left behind?

I'd rather stay put in this reckless equilibrium, letting the holiday bustle envelop me like surroundsound system.

My mistakes have been multitudinous, and maybe so have yours. The thing is moving forward, striving ahead for the goal, and the prize that is yours. That's in the Word. That's my illumination.

Honestly? This didn't begin with a Me Reflection. I stopped doing those when I realised they were pointless and entirely extravagant. This actually germinated from a budding intention to discuss a conundrum - the world's dietary inequity. But by feeling a little gouty after lunch, it would be insensitive, obtuse. So I hesitate, and then drop it (like it's hot).

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I have lost the momentum to think now. I blame it on all wiseacres who slammed Bush Jr. for pursuing a war based on faulty intelligence. ('faulty intelligence' sounds frighteningly oxymoronic)

Obama used to be my new American hero. At the Jefferson Jackson Dinner, I thought he broke it down with such finesse:

planet in peril. nation at war. working harder for less. Bush taking fear and falsehood into taking the country into a war that should have never been authorised or waged.

But NOW, he's so busy telling the people what he thinks they want to hear, that he broaches sweeping statements, phase withdrawal for troops, and other pie-in-the-sky plans (both him and john edwards too).

Then there's Clinton, she's done a 180degree turnaround since 2002 after she proclaimed to all who would listen that the US should "disarm or be disarmed".

Bravado I thought only Bush Jr. was capable of. Having decided (belatedly) that it is not America's war to win or lose, and pushing it on iraq to decide to provide unified government is lip service. I mean, where's the respect for the grey areas when campaigning? Or a nuanced view, drowned amidst her determination to win the white house back for democrats, or be the First Woman President. Whatever that is supposed to mean.

Seriously, I was under the impression that gender equality involved the unconscious disregard for gender, not the misplacement of loyalties.

Ok 'nuff mumbled.

Thank you aditi for the mp3 Sylvia Plath by Ryan Adams. (: